I was dx'd two days before chiristmas and I've been on avonex since January of this year. I do not get my shot every week, mainly because the side effects I get can only be described as "pure hell". Chills, tremors, muscle oversensitivity, aches like someone is drilling holes into my bones, and my muscles ache so much a simple hug from my children brings me to tears. A few weeks ago I had thought that a nice hot shower may help the muscle aches, but it only took about 10 seconds in the shower for me to get out because it felt like someone was stabbing me with a bunch of little knives.
Well, lately I have been having blackouts, i'll be out for a minute or so, then wake up, not know where i am, what i'm doing, ect. My family says it's because i'm missing my injections. So, my mother and husband have now decided that I cannot be trusted to make my own medical decisions regarding this and are now MAKING me take it every week. Now that's fine and good, whatever, I know deep down they're only concern is me, but I have 2 small children, they need mom, not 5 or 6 days a week, but ALL week. My husband sees how bad i feel, but does not hesitate to still ask "honey, what are you making for dinner" or "can you get me a beer?" while i'm curled up in a fetal position, shaking uncontrollably, buried in a mound of blankets.
I just don't know what is worse. With the ms, I'm exhausted all the time, no matter what, the doc gave me provigil, but it doesn't work. With the avonex, i feel like hell and am still exahusted. Any words of advice?