I don;t abuse my valium. I use it like once a week but it doesn't have all the side affects that the vicoan has. I have been prescribed valium for almost 3 years and I go months without it I am fine. Vicodan scares me. My best friend od'd on it and my mother died of a bleeding ulcer(she drank and took things containing acetominphin) so anything with acetomiphin in it scares me.
I have read everything about my problems but my doctor doesn;t think I should get sugery and I am scared to death of sugery.
I dunno, there just has to be a way to get my back to stop hurting without going to the extreme. If I just had a herniated disk I wouldn't be so bad but because I have all these things combined they make it a lot worse. My back doctor didn;t even notice I had scolosis(i could even tell just look at my freaking hips they are not suppost to look so different)
i got a bone scan after I got hit by the mirror of a car while standing on the sidewalk and the doctor found nothing even I saw the scolosis. They keep telling me if I stand up straight it'll feel better. I don;t have the muscles in my back to stand up straight and the course of exercise I have to do is going to take like 9 months for me to really feel anything. I am very weak I barely any muscle in my back and apparently the kind that I do have is for flexibilty not stability. I am just so tired of this.
Every doctor says something else is wrong with my back and is my main problem. My doctor thinks it is my herniated disk(which I agree the pains are sharp and shoot down my leg) and my physical therapist thinks it is my scolosis and if I stand up straight, do exercise, and use my lift I should be fine. I'm not fine tho. I am an interior design major... My back problem creates huge problems for me. If it was not for cad(computer aided design) I would not even be able to get into the proffesion I want.
I can't get a part time job because either thy find out about myback problem and fire me or they require me to stand for 8 hours and that is doing it impossible. There is no way in hell I can stand for that long. Standing on line for the groocery store hurts me.
I'm sorry if am whinny. I am just pissed at my inability to do anything because of my stupid back. I'm 23 I should be able to walk up a hill and not want to cry, work at a job and not end up going home and stuck on a heat pad until I go to bed, or even just go snowboarding. I want to so badly but I know what will happen. I will throw out my back for a few days and not be able to go to school my teachers will get pissed because "i have responsibilities" yeah what am I suppose to do when I can't walk.
I fear getting a cold. I know that it is very likely I will throw out myback.
I am constantly in fear of hurting myself.