I like your post, its not good, but I went through the same thing back in august. I broke up with my boyfriend luis of 3 years, we lived together...He moved out. We live in a really small town, and I didnt want to see him around, so I moved out of town, I moved in with 2 guys (chad and matt), and I took my best friend with me. I was having sooo much fun...Too much. I got really out of control. I had my own house, so we had a party every night. I drank every night and every morning, cause I never slept. I was a waitress in the town I used to live in, so I drove really far to work everyday. I was always late, or didnt show up, I cant remember how many times I called in. Then, I just never went back. I think that was such a big mistake, I absolutely loved my job...And everyone loved me. I could make $400 in one weekend, I was the best waitress they had. I ended up getting a new job at sears, and that was even farther from my house, so I moved again...With 2 differant guys. There house was even crazier. I was loosing alot of weight. When I lived out there, it was the skinniest I have ever been. I had really really long blonde hair, and one day not knowing what I was thinking...I cut it all off, crooked. I didnt even care, about anything. My fun started to end, and I was always crying. I was always thinking about luis. Matt talked me into coming back home, he said he would help me get things going back on track with my clothing line, so I did. I called luis one day, and we talked for like...4 hours. He said he wanted me to move back...So I went and stayed the weekend with my mom, and he stayed with us too. Guess what? I got pregnant! Then I moved back, and were back together. Now, I couldent be happier. Im so happy I straightened up before something bad happened to me. I totally understand where your coming from. But I really think you need to be carefull. Dont go and get pregnant by just anyone, I think it will be a big mistake. Wait for someone you love, wait untill your happy with your life. If your having problems now, pregnancy will not fix them. Its not fair to the helpless baby either. Take some time to yourself, think about what you want, and think about what your doing to yourself...
