Here I am, knowing everything there is to
know about eating disorders, health
concerns, etc. My god, i'm a social
worker, I help other people for a living,
but somehow I can't help myself. I know
it's a commitment that I need to make, but
it just seems I find myself making excuses
for every positive thing I could do for
myself. I've been sick for 10 years, i'm
about to turn 24. I've managed to remain
hospital-free for the past 5 years and
have made some improvements in my health,
but the binging and purging is still
there. Like I said, i've been in
long-term treatment several times in
several different treatment centers, but
the anxiety and fear of gaining weight are
still there. When I eat healthy, I feel
full, anxious, like I want to jump out of
my body because it's so uncomfortable.
And I find myself fixated on food and when
I can binge and purge next. I know I
need help, but I feel as though i've been
through so many treatment centers,
hospitals and therapists, what more is
there to do? Help.
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mshanson
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Nov 2004 Posts: 102 Location: California
How to Stop Posted: 01-21-05 02:18am
:idea: the recovery process is long &
hard, I know. I've had this for 30 years
--- since I was 12 --- and just now am I
ssslllooowwwlllyyyy getting over it. I
found a combination of counseling &
nutrition helped me immensely, along with
a supportive family & circle of
friends. "the only way out is through"
--- you have to bear the seemingly
unbearable feelings at first, until they
subside. Eventually you will feel better
& less fat & full, and you won't
like the old feelings of starvation &
binge-highs as you did before. I haven't
binged or purged in over 2 years now ---
and I used to do it multiple times every
day. So there is hope. Just don't give
up!
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ktrryan
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jan 2005 Posts: 3 Location: Michigan
Posted: 01-21-05 20:07pm
Thank you, I really appreciate the advice.
It's hopeful to hear you are doing well.
