in the demon world

I have explained that I have this other %uFFFDfamily%uFFFD in the demon world, or sometimes I call them my %uFFFDdemon family%uFFFD, and sometimes people ask why I call them %uFFFDdemons%uFFFD. Not everything they do is demonic, they have normal lives, but there is violence and killing. It%uFFFDs like going on safari, and they have made me a part of it.


I woke up hurt, physically, it seemed, after maybe the most violent dream ever. I was very stabbed with glass and I didn%uFFFDt want to move. I had killed a lot of people, but it was non-stoppable. At the end of the dream I walked down some stairs, elissa got up from a table with magazines, and a female demon who had now stopped fighting said, referring to elissa, %uFFFDshe%uFFFDs so sweet%uFFFD or %uFFFDisn%uFFFDt she the sweetest one%uFFFD and I came over to elissa%uFFFDs side and she said %uFFFDi don%uFFFDt know how to relate to you.%uFFFD

as the dream began I can%uFFFDt remember what got me mad. But I was just standing up for myself, I think. It was against a man and a woman. I was upstairs at my mom%uFFFDs house. And I took a big chair and beat down the man. I prevailed. There had been an incident about purchasing a goldfish before this, so maybe that had something to do with it, but I prevailed, I came downstairs, and the guy comes down after me, saying something like %uFFFDi just want to resolve it%uFFFD or %uFFFDi just want to deal with you%uFFFD, whatever, and I don%uFFFDt stop. I beat him some more and throw him to the ground and stand on him. He gets up. There%uFFFDs also a female, and she comes down the stairs too. There is one scene, almost funny, where he%uFFFDs chasing someone swinging a chain, female demon behind him, swinging another chain, and i%uFFFDm chasing behind her, swinging a chain. The second demon being female, I only hit at her legs.


The scene switches to me having been sent to bed, and i%uFFFDm mad. I%uFFFDm in someone else%uFFFDs room upstairs. The female demon in putting me in there and trying to get me to cooperate, but I won%uFFFDt. At this point i%uFFFDm not defending myself anymore, i%uFFFDm going wrong. A light above the bed is lit and I swing at it and break it, to violently turn it off. The female demon says %uFFFDno, no,%uFFFD but I won%uFFFDt stop, and she leaves. I smash the light, only to notice another light to its side, smash it, then another, then another. I can hear talking outside the room about what i%uFFFDm doing. All this glass is smashed, finally the room is dark, but there%uFFFDs always one more light to smash. Finally I get in bed. It%uFFFDs full of glass but I lie down carefully and i%uFFFDm ok. Then this other demon, a guy demon, is in the bed next to me and starts arguing with me, and when I make him mad he decides to push himself toward me, knowingly or not stabbing me in the right leg with some of the smashed glass. I tell him %uFFFDyou realize you%uFFFDre stabbing me deeply%uFFFD but he doesn%uFFFDt stop. Finally it%uFFFDs over and he gets out of the bed and so do i.


Then there%uFFFDs a part where the bed and all the glass in the bedroom are a central stage set and there are dozens of people around, the male and the female demons are there. All the people are on their side it seems but are only there as spectators. They taunt me. I smash the two demons around in the glass, they smash me around in the glass. My hands are badly stabbed; also my back, legs, and sides. The two demons sometimes get killed but come back as a different member of the audience turns into the original demon, whether the male or the female, whichever just got killed, and I continue to kill because I continue to prevail.

The taunts are something about a tv show and a time slot. A man near the side has a book; I can%uFFFDt remember the details but the gist of it is that i%uFFFDm now this wild, outrageous character. One time the guy demon comes back and seems he might prevail this time but I throw him far down the stairs and it seems decisive, because the female demon comes back one more time but doesn%uFFFDt fight anymore. Everything, it seems, is back to normal. Someone else is talking with her and she mentions her concert tour, and seems normal, and at any rate she isn%uFFFDt attacking anymore.

I walk with her up the stairs over the platform and we see elissa downstairs waiting behind a table with some magazines. The female demon says %uFFFDisn%uFFFDt she the sweetest one%uFFFD and I walk down to elissa, who gets up, comes to my side and says, %uFFFDi don%uFFFDt know how to relate to you.%uFFFD I feel like a war hero or something and just act like it%uFFFDs ok.


The real elissa woke me up with breathing spasms, saying %uFFFDhelp%uFFFD, and wanted me to put my hands on her back. I almost couldn%uFFFDt because of all the stabbing from the glass.

During the fight, on the stage, as it started and stopped, there had been a lot of dialogue, a lot of challenge from the demon people, like %uFFFDoh yeah, you can take this?%uFFFD and my attitude had been %uFFFDi don%uFFFDt care%uFFFD, all-out killer.


-onderdonk