Help! I Can't Stop This Monster Within. Posted: 01-16-05 17:35pm
I'm anorexic/bulimic, and I am battling
this moster within for 20 years. I'm in
counseling, and it seems to be helping a
little.
I was doing good with staying away from
the bulimia, however, last night my father
decided to tell me I ate to much because I
was eating some cookies and milk. He bet
me $100 that he ate less than I do, and
then told me that I needed to lose my ass.
I threw up I was so upset. I had not
threw up in 6 months. Now, i'm scared to
eat anything because everytime I eat
something it ends up in my throat, and I
have to get rid of it.
I can't make myself eat any more. I know
I suppose to for health reasons, but i've
just lost hope. Please, if anyone has any
suggestions on beating this monster let me
know.
Thanks
pebbles, (talkinnay@hotmail.Com
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Super_K
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Jan 2005 Posts: 50
Posted: 01-16-05 19:55pm
I think if its that bad you should check
into a rehab center for your own good!
:?:
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hurt28
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Dec 2004 Posts: 49 Location: lowell
Its Ok Posted: 01-17-05 11:10am
Hey I no how you feel I have so many ppl
calling me fat and I just ignore them I
dont care I dont wanna stop being bullimic
not till I am happy with my self....
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ktrryan
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 Jan 2005 Posts: 3 Location: Michigan
Posted: 01-20-05 20:13pm
Sometimes our family members are the last
to realize how harmful their words can be.
Don't listen to everyone else, listen to
your own heart. It sounds as if you know
you have a problem and you need help, now
you just have to make a commitment to do
something about it. Funny, if I could
only take my own advice!
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hurt28
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Dec 2004 Posts: 49 Location: lowell
Hey Posted: 01-22-05 10:10am
Ya I no I always say im ganna stop but
some how I always end up doing what I ahve
done!! And it reallly suxs I just wish I
never started to do this I think the main
reson was because every one would call me
fat in middle school and I just couldnt
take it any more. Yesterday I was talking
to this boy at lunch and I was lik oh u
need a hair cut and he like got mad and he
was like u need to loose weight I wanted
to die right there I was like so up set
and here I am stuffing my face w/ food and
he has to say that I felt sooo upset.So of
coures I went to the bathroom and well..
U no the rest.. And I was doing soo good
it would have been almost a 2 weeks... I
was doing it everyday .... Welll ttyl ok
bye
