I was about to go and eat, then I seen your post, and I had to reply. I could imagine what you feel like...I dont think you will feel like this forever. Its just all knew, and you dont know what to think or expect. I have some questions for you though, how come you dont want to tell your parents? Are you scared of what theyll say/do? Do you live with your boyfriend? How long have you been together? If your 19, I dont think your that young...Well your young, but your an adult. I dont think theres such thing as a 'right time' to get pregnant, even if it is planned. Even 25 year olds get stressed out over things like pregnancy, everyone gets scared/worried. Im 18, and im handling my pregnancy great. Im gunna use ka as an example, shes 14, and now she has a beautiful little girl, and when I read her post, it makes me feel soo happy that im pg, cause I can tell she has so much love for her baby, and yes, she is young, but she got through it. And you can too. I dont work now, so I really have no money for a baby, but somehow I have everything I need. Luis takes care of me, and hes going to take care of our baby, untill im able to work again. I dont like depending on someone else either, I would rather pay for everything myself because I feel bad. But that is his baby too, and he should have just as much responsibility as me. You dont have to depend on getting money from the government, unless you absolutely have to. But there are things such as wic, that will give every women with a child under 4 free milk, cheese, peanut butter, baby formula, and cereal. You dont have to feel bad for recieving that kind of help, even I get that :) you can even get free birthing classes if you want. You dont have to get welfare, but alot of girls go on access to cover their medical bills. My mom got me all signed up for coverage, because she said "they take money out of my check for other womens babys, now its my daughter" you wont be hurting someone elses income by getting financial help for your baby, the government is going to take out of everyones check reguardless if its for you or not, so you might as well if you need it. I would rather sign up for welfare, than my baby not have the things she needs. I would go to any limits to get her what she needs. I agree with your boyfriend, I hope you start getting happy...Cause your already pregnant. Might as well enjoy it. Maybe when you hear the little heartbeat for the first time, youll have a change of heart. Youll realize what a precious thing youve created. Your baby is gunna depend on you...Your gunna be the only mommy it ever has...Sorry this was so long, I just had alot to say.

Pinkbaby:thank you so much for responding. I don't want to tell my parents because I love them more than anything and the last thing I want to do is hurt and dissapoint them. My situation is really complicated. I can't really begin to explain it all. I have posted bits and pieces of it in a few different posts, but a quick summary of why things are going to be so bad is b/c:
my boyfriend is black, I am white (my parents totally disagree with interracial dating and especially bringing biracial children into the world)
i am not married and have only been with my boyfriend (in a very rocky relationship) for about 6 months.
He is kind of alot older than me, and has 2 other kids by 2 different women so I feel as he is going to be pretty much like yeah so what your having a baby since he's already been through this twice. He seems like he is putting almost everything on me when it comes to talking about the baby and how i'm going to be the one doing this and that for the baby.
I don't have any money and neither does the father of the baby. The father of the baby doesn't have his own place (he is staying w/ some relatives) and well I have an apartment but my parents pay for it because I am away at college (which they are definitely not going to be doing anymore once they find out about me being pg and i'm not expecting them to b/c that is not fair to them). The father of the baby is into things that I don't want to be involved in especially now that I can't only think about myself. He's the type of guy that you think its fine for you to date but not the kind of guy you would want to have responsible for helping you raise a child.

I am still under my parents insurance but only because I am a full time college student, and since I am due in september I will probably not be taking classes for fall semester therefore I will not be covered under their insurance. Plus my lease is up this summer and not going to be able to afford staying where I live so I don't have any clue as to where I will live.
Another thing that makes this bad, is because I have heard my parents talking about having grandchildren and seem so pleased yet nervous when my sis and her husband talk about having kids and I know it is b/c they know they are very responsible, financially ready, have a house, 3 nice vehicles, and pretty much everything you can think of...And yet my sis and her husband still tell my parents they are not ready to have kids....So it is going to be horrible news to them under my circumstances when I tell them I am pg...It will be their first grandchild and not to mention biracial and everything else....

Thats not really everything, but a good idea of things....

Well shiit...Now im like uuh, I dont really know what to say. Everything from my last post just goes out the window. Well, I know you love your parents, and I know they love you. So they will get over the racial thing. The baby is gunna be their grandbaby, and their blood, no matter if it came out purple. Maybe when your parents do find out, they will help you, you just never know. And if they dont, theres still other options. Well if I were you, I would just put school on hold, find a job, and save up as much as possible. I know you could save up enough to pay your bills in advance for a while, and get some things you need for the baby. You can always go back once you get back on your feet. Even if it takes alot of hard work, it will all pay off in the end. Some things are better when you have to work extra hard for them, cause it seems like you appreciate it more. As far as that babys daddy goes...You need to know, you dont need him. You might think you do, but you can always do it alone too. My mom did it with 3 of us. My dad left her with no phone, no food, no money, a broken down car, and a eviction notice, but my mom got herself a job, and got us a place to live. Dont ever feel sorry for yourself, or doubt yourself. I know that if I had to, I could make it on my own, because I know I have the determintation. Only depend on you, and youll do fine, then when someone else helps you out...Which im pretty sure someone will, it will just be a little relief. If you really want this baby, you will find a way, to get what you need, and get through this.

Hey, I havent been on here for awhile but I read your post and your in the same boat as me... Im 19 and 18 wks pregnant. I have the same emotions and fears as you do. I have no money and im not ready so thats why I have decided to do the brave thing and give me child up so that he/she can have a chance a better life than I can give it. And then then when im all grown up, out of school, and have a stable life for a child then I will have my own. I know it can be a really hard decision but its the most unselfish thing you can do and you would be so proud of yourself.... Dont get me wrong im not telling you that you have to do this but just consider it and what you can do for your baby and a family that cant have kids... Im here for you if you want to chat more...Ashley