Hey everyone, I am 19 years old and depressed. I know that many people think that 19 is too young of an age to be in a depressed state. I do have a history of depression/anger management. I have been treated before but find that the meds. Only make me sleep;and that's what I do when i'm depressed anyways.
2 years ago my depression sort of lingered on hold. I met my fiance and he turned my world around. I had nothing to be depressed about, or so I thought.
About 10 months ago I started to slip back into it. You know how you just know? Well...It was extreemely hard to go along with everyday life when all I wanted to do was sleep. Sleeping is my first red flag. When the only interest I have is sleep,i'm in trouble. I buckeled down and finally told my my fiance' what was going on with me and everything about my past issues w/ depression. He claimed to understand. For the next couple of weeks he would gently encourage me to get up and about and take my mind off of my problems. It worked....For a bit.
In november I started to catch myself making negative statements for no reason. When I am depressed I am not the nicest of people to get along with. Its to the point where I am being forced to seek medical attention by everyone around me. :evil: I know that not everyone has or suffers from depression, but I do know that not everyone's brain is perfectly balanced. I know that I need the meds. But then there's that side of me who refuses to take any because there is no problem.
As you can probably read, I am not the most descriptive of people :wink: . I found a job and am happy with it...Just not myself. I really wish I could pinpoint the problem that i'm having. It's just such a wide range of difficulties. My upbringing was barely minimum. I did recieve what many kids don't have. A parent who loves them and who would do everything for them. But when it comes to being emotionially detached from people at the age of 7, something can't be right.