Thanks vanessa! I appreciate your kind words.
Im still feeling very very bad...Im not yet to the point where I can really relax...Believe me I try. I get anxious watching tv, and forget about trying to read...I havent read since this started...I pace alot.
And crawl under my covers until the anxiety creeps up more then I get up.
(and of course take care of my son in between).
He's learning alot about independence this week, thats for sure.
I go to my primary doc today to discuss the meds and see if im doing everythign I can.
At least its the weekend and my dh will be home to help w/the child.
Well, I smell poops...Anxiety or not, a mommys work never stops.
Say a prayer for me..I really need it.!

I will try to find time to read the ebook...For now things are looking up a bit.
I still have alot of anxiety in the morning...And im determined the only way I can sleep is on the futon in the spare room (away from my dh :cry: )...But one thing at a time.
I felt much closer to my son today...We had a good day.
And im broiling steaks for me and dh for dinner...
So im back a bit.
Thx for the kind words...

Hi
i feel your pain , and just know that you are not alone. I do not have it to such a degree but non the less its feels the same while its happening, and I remember back in the day laying in bed staring at the ceiling while laying in bed . You need to do two things , one is focus on you and do something for yourself like join a gym where they have baby sitting , or take nice walks with the stroller and enjoy nature. Look around , take deep breaths , if you stop and look around you realize all the beauty you have been missing because we are so wrapped up in our own emotions. When you feel anxiety get into the light , sit outside and get some fresh air . The other thing is you give up thinking about being anxious and know that you have to get out of bed to take care of your beautiful little baby . I know its hard work but have fun too !! To hell with house work and get down on your hands and knees and play mindless child games.. Color , build , all that .. You baby needs you now more then ever , do not let this anxiety run your life , before you know it you have a teenager and you will wonder where all the good years went . Kick back and make this about you and what you want .. Do not let the outside world dictate who you should be and what you should say , own , or do .. No one is perfect , and most that say they are have other issues .. Hang in there with your meds , if they do not work then try something else .. Anyone can try yoga .. Give it a try , something your doing isnt working , so do something new ! Good luck

Ps.. Your dr didn't tell you the meds take about three weeks to kick in .. ? Research it online , I know its true for most

Thx zeta..Youre so right on about everything.
I have been trying to get out...However, no kidding, for a whole week its been rainy/icy and gray. That sure doesnt help much.
But I think its going to get nice at the end of the week..And we do get out to go to the store and drive a bit.
I think im on the right path...Its just taking longer than I imagined.
And im oh so tired in the mornings.
Thanks again.