Calm down.. Your not going to die. The only thing I know that you could do is maybe explain your situation to a psychiatrist.. Maybe you need to go on a diffrent medication or something. Why does what you create make you mad? Like is it because you don't think what you created was good or do you create things that remind you of something?

Do u get mad coz u think u shouldnt be doing anything thats constructive, or coz u get writers block. Also, you probably get stressed when u have to concentrate. I think u need a more positive attitude when it comes to creativity, remember, u have done it before, u can get it back.

Also, maybe just draw or write anything, it doesnt matter if its good or bad, just to find your feet

I think you should experiment with different media...Maybe ceramics or sculpture, or whatever. I understand the feeling of helplessness and anger when you feel you are not creating something good. Sometimes trying other things helps the creativity get moving.

Make your life your artwork.....There in lies the answer.

If you don't have a life outside your artwork, than quit your medication.

If it is somewhere in between, then do the same.