20 f here... Im in a bit of a sticky situation. I have wanted to explore my bisexual side for a while and finally was able to (to an extent-- nothing more than kissing). However, since then, me and this girl have become really close friends and I have developed a huge crush on her, which I believe she doesnt know about. All I want is a relationship with her, but she seems to want nothing more than friendship. When she goes to hook up or hang out with men I get very upset and nauseated (like I am now). Im afraid this might ruin my life.... And I came back from vacation two weeks early to hang out with her and now im afraid I really made a huge mistake and im practically letting her jerk me around by a chain around my neck. I dont want to lose her friendship, but the last few months have been chipping away at my soul, and my sanity, and im afraid I might slip back into the depression I once was. I thought I was a stronger person than to let myself fall into this trap again, but since this was my first female relationship, maybe I have become oblivious. I know that its impossible to ask you all how to move on with my life and get over this person (because this is one of the most troubling life problems), but if anyone has any advice id really appreciate it

sunny :cry: