I always feel as if someone's watching me Posted: 12-29-04 06:21am
Well, I don't really know if anything's
wrong, or if i'm just overly paranoid, so
I figured i'd see what you thought...
I always feel as if someone's watching me.
24/7, wherever I am. Even this second I
think someone is watching me. When I walk
around at school, I feel as if everyone is
staring at me, either judging or just
looking. I can't eat in public because I
feel everyone watching me as I stuff my
face, and I fear I may chew weirdly.
Whenever anyone is talking, I think
they're talking about me and how stupid or
immature or something I am. Whenever I go
in a bathroom, I have to look into every
mirror to see it's only me, and then look
closer to see if it's a two way mirror.
Depending on where I am, I check the
closets and cupboards to make sure i'm
alone. In public bathrooms, I have to
make sure i'm the only one in there. And
then I have this thing where I can't stay
on the toilet for a long time or else
something may come out of it... O.O and
same goes for when I flush it. I feel I
have to be out of the room before it's
done flushing or something is going to
come out and kill me. I'm also afraid of
the dark. When the power goes out, i'll
start screaming, then i'll run and wrap
myself under a thick blanket and lie very
still for however long it takes till the
lights are back on or someone comes home.
I can't seem to trust anyone either.
Whenever I meet someone, I automatically
think they're talking to me for kicks, or
that there's some other twisted reason
they're even coming to me. I can't help
but think no one in this world actually
would like me. For instance, my 'best
friend' has a friend who has a huge crush
on me. But in my eyes, it's my 'friend'
trying to set me up with him so that he
can take advantage of me, her at the same
time, and in the end everyone would wind
up laughing at me.
It's a lot more complex than that...I just
can't really explain it. O.O and i'm just
wondering if it's possible I have some
sort of issue, or if it's just paranoria.
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Rai
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Jan 2005 Posts: 8 Location: Virginia
Posted: 01-01-05 22:43pm
I don't think I should be one to reply,
since I don't have schizophrenia or
anything... But I just thought I should
give advice rather then tell you that you
have a problem, which you obviously
already know you have one.
I think you're just pessimistic :lol: you
should try to stay more calm in
situations. Relax.. Everything is going
to be fine.. Just clear your mind. Hell,
try out for yoga or something. You need a
relaxing time during your day.
About the toilet thing.. Just remember -
its never happened before. It most likely
won't happen to you because you're
thinking about it. This is how I usually
control myself. In any horror movies, has
the person who gets eaten by a monster
actually think they're going to get eaten
by a monster? No! So since you thought
of it, its not going to happen.
Thats what I think, at least o.O it calms
me down!
For boys, well, you just never know. I
say its better to just stay away from
them. But thats just from my experiences
:wink:
