Well my last relationship was 2.5 years and this guy was truly my first love... We were best friends, lived together, told each other we loved each other after only 2 months, he gave me a ring, went to school together, were the same age and on and on and on... I think I grew so close to him because we shared alot of important life events together... First we grew up together really (not close, but as grew up through school together because we were in the same grade), we graduated high school together, started college together, graduated our 2-year college together, purchased a home, purchased new cars, lost a close friend in an accident, took vacations and many other things... He was my first love... We broke up but still talk occassionally...


Now I am in a new relationship with a guy for a few months and I really deep down like him inside.. I like him alot... But he has never had a serious gf before... And it seems like our interests clash because I have had a serious relationship not too too long ago and he has never had a serious relationship... He has always been a guy that just hangs out with everyone...


Well it seems like I always question his feelings for me and that I tend to hold back alot of mine because of the heartbreak I suffered after my last breakup with my first love... Well I broke up with my new bf a few days ago because I just didn't think it would work out even though I honestly like him alot... Well he freaked out (not bad) but he wanted to see me right away... He told me that he has been wanting to tell me something but he was too shy... Well he finally told me that he loved me... It kinda scared me even though I have strong feelings for him and I questioned if he really meant it (or even knows what love is) because I know the last time someone said that to me, I was really hurt and questioned if he ever meant it... We are now back together...

I think I expect more out of my current bf (as in if he loves me the way I want him to, I am expecting our relationship to be picture perfect like my last relationship) even though no two relationships are alike....

So am I wrong for holding back my feelings and critiquing our relationship so much to avoid hurt... And questioning his feelings for me? I think I may be ruining my relationship by doing this.... I dont think its fair to him.... And it has nothing to do with him... At all...


Am I wrong?