I understand what you are going through with the cutting. I am 32 and have been cutting and other self-harm/injure/mutilation since I was 12.

People who don't si really don't understand how we who do work.

There is a web site called bodies under siege that is specifically for those who si. Http://busmail.Org/phpbb/index.Php

gingeroo

Rin, I don't think u are a crazy kid. I too had a cutting problem growing up. From the time I was 12 untill about 2-3 years ago (i am now 25) people thought I was nuts. I thought I was nuts. I couldn't stop no matter what. I was put on strong meds, I was put in the hospital, but nothing worked. I found a way to cut myself with plastic utensils even. I had to get stitches 3 times and should probably have gotten more but I hid it those times. No one seemed to understand and even when I tried to explain that it was better to take it out on myself than on someone else they still didn't get it. I too was a great student and had lots of friends but I had this "weird problem" . I finally stopped because my boyfriend started crying the last time I did it. It takes a lot of will power to stop (it's like a drug) I went and got tattoos and piercings and that seemed to help cause it was still pain. (you're a little young for tattoos but....) next time you go to cut, think of the future and the nasty scars it leaves. (i wear long sleeves a lot) I am now pregnant and have not wanted to cut for a long time but.... I get that feeling every once in a while. Not to cut but almost. It's a very hard habit to stop but you can, just be aware of when you're about to do it and force yourself to stop. Do it while you are young so u won't have to go through all the caca like I did. Good luck to u. :hugs:

I used to cut when I was in high school after a few big events in my life ie a close relative dying. Not because I wanted to die but it was the only thing that I felt a tiny bit of release from my emotions........So I understand. I havent cut for atleast 4 years now. 1 reason I stopped was willpower, I needed to stop because of me not because of someone else telling me 2 and 2....I kept myself busy, tried to spend time with friends and 3 when I couldnt do that I did what ur doing now....Speak to someone on the net. I think if u really want to stop you can. Just make sure you have someone to talk to about it.

At the moment I am trying to stop

my bf really wants me to stop so I am trying to for him

it is really hard sometimes (i cut myself for about 6 years.... I'm almost 20 now)... Its like loosing a long time friend sometimes...

Just try your best and dont beat yourself up if you fail a few times

The best way for people to stop inflicting pain on themselves is by treating the underlying biochemical disorder that prompts them to do so.


Si people have a kind of depression caused by hypoglycemia (insulin resistance) that can be treated by going on a hypoglycemic diet.

This diet which is a sugar-free diet taken in frequent small snacks during the day, together with some vitamins and minerals, helps to normalize stress hormones, as well as erratic insulin and blood sugar levels.


Please read:

"what is hypoglycemia?" at our web site.


Jurriaan plesman

Rin, you see you are not alone. My son did that for years, and maybe he still is. He now 22 year old. My son was adhd, and latter was diagnosed with bypolar. He drove me crazy with worry. I love him so much it hurt to see his arms. He too has to wear long sleeve shirts when he goes to job interviews. It's imbarrassing to him. There is no wonder drug that can fix the problem. But after doing a lot of research on the matter it seems to come on during the teen years with all the stress you kids go through. And as you grow older it becomes managable. He hid it from me because it upset him, but now we talk about it and everything else.

You hit the nail on the head. You get the urge when you have a lot of pent up emotions. Don't beat yourself up about it. That only adds to your stress. You can always come here to talk. You are not nuts. I wish the best for you.

Carman

Hi I am this girls friend -- I dont want to use my name so ill call myself anonmyus for now until im comfortable revealing myself. Ok well I am a cutter and I know how you feel, I dont like talking about it. My arms have about 4 scars on each lower arm and ones u cannot see. I get depressded everytime soemthing happens so I just cut myself--usually with a safety pin really deep or a little blade, deep but not deep enought to kill myself...=/ wellll I am 14 yrs old and a freshman in high schoool. I know how you feel and I hope u cope better with ur cutting than I do with mine no one knows but kelsey and I dont like sharing it with people so they dont tihnk im crazy or anything like that so if u have any advice for me anyone reply to this and kelsey will tell me until I sign up for this which wont be soon, I am too shy right now. :(

Hey, i've been cutting since I was in the eighth grade(i was 14 when I started.) now i'm in grade 11 (17 years old) and I am way beyond tired of my habit...I've tried everything to fix this but as soon as I think i've stopped, I do it again...No one in my family knows how I feel...It would make things worse if they did, they would over-react and blame me for being stupid and making bad decisions...Thats how they are...I've been suffering from un-diagnosed depression for since I was 13 years old...I just want to get better....But I know there's no way I can get help until I leave here...When I get out on my own I should be able to get help...But until then I need to deal with it on my own...My friends are scared and it's gotten bad enough that they said if they see another cut on my wrist they will drive me themselves to the doctor and tell my parents...And it's not uncommon for me to stand alone with a knife to my wrist or a bottle of pills in my hand...I've written countless letters...But something always stops me just in time...I dont want to die...I just need an escape...To make my emotional pain visable so I can see that it's healing...I see that scabe forming, I see the scars fading...I make the hurt real... I've talked to teachers and our school nurse about a "friend" of mine that needs help without parental support but none of them seem to know much that can help me in any way...I just need to talk to someone that won't ovverreact...Someone that knows what it's like...My depression is affecting everything in my life....I can't sleep, I cant concentrate...I used to be good in school and now I can barely pass...I just want to get out of this....I want help...If any of you know anything that might help me...Please....Let me know.

Hi..Im 14 I used to cut....My parents found out and now I dont it was easy for me to stop cause I hadnt done it for to long I did it for the same reasons as you and liek no none at my school would ever guess that I did.


If you want you can write me.




--keely

Dear....You can do all of us a favour :stop writing in these forums !! Or at least talk about your problems cause it's clear that you thought about killing yourself once or twice .Do you think these people need this kind of advice?
These people are looking for someone to understand them and to whom they can relate, and I know that you are full of prejudices maby someone here can understand you.
And another thing christ never said kill yourself.

I know how you feel. Sometimes the pain inside is so much you can"t express it. So you cut yourself so the pain is visable something you can see. Trying to make the pain outside so it dulls the pain inside. Well at least that is how it is for me.

First I am responding to what this man said...

I beg you, dears, please do yourselves and everyone that knows you or knows of you or may know you in the future a great service: stop cutting to feel better and just kill yourself. You'll feel great! Seriously, if you're depressed and hurting at 13, don't you see that life will never get better? So why prolong the agony for another 30 or 40 years? Just kill yourself. If cutting your arms doesn't do it, go across the neck (aim for the jugular, like a real man). If that doesn't work, just beat your head with a brick/large rock until you bash through the skull and the stupid. Right before you cash in your chips, you'll experience enlightenment.

For these are the words of christ, our lord.

Health questiones.

What is wrong with you? Telling someone to kill themself first of all ppl cut themselves not to kill themself but to release the built up emotions they have instead of them, and no christ doesnt tell ppl to kill themself cause that is a sin, you obvisiously need help big time and I think you should go to seek therapy.

Now sorry back to you, I to have on occassion cut my arms, usually with tacks or knives and I have a couples scars on my arm but I havent cut myself in awhile I am still depressed but I don't have this urge to do that anymore, im not sure if I am done forever but I havent cut in awhile, I would suggest trying to see a therapist or when you feel sad call someone anyone even if you cant talk about your feelings just talk about anything to take your mind off of what is going on

I used to cut. I felt a little better afterward and also guilty. Then people at school started rumors about my cutting and it would feel terrible and cut. But I realized the more I cut the more people would talk caca. So eventually I stopped. Don't worry girl know what you're going through, but you will get over it, just ask for help like you're doing now and you'll be on the right track :-)

Try getting on anti depressiants... It's at least worth a shot.

this link is changed for anyone interested

concerned 'forumer' http://buslist.Org/phpbb/

not very nice--dont say that about jesus christ

Some times taking meds ain't going to help. You need to be ready to be helped. Like I am. Thats why i'm here. So I canbe helped.

Some times taking meds ain't going to help. You need to be ready to be helped. Like I am. Thats why i'm here. So I canbe helped.

Theres alot of people going through the same thing, allthough its totaly different its the same.
Im 13 too and ive been cutting I have huge scars now
if u take a long long look inside yourself and figure out what really make you happy (this may take from 2 days to 5 years) but when u have done it it u will be happy!

Luv me

p.S isnt it weirsd I cant take my own advice?