Is It Me Or Do I Have Nothing to Whine About? Posted: 12-04-04 09:02am
Im just wondering why I have always felt
so so sh*t.. No matter what I do I cant
do any thing right and right now my life
is not getting any where. I started
feeling this way seriously when I was
about nine. I knew about life I knew
about stuff that happens. I knew my mum
was having a affair, and that she never
wanted to wed my dad. My mum used to talk
to my best friend of 16 years,mum saying
about how I needed special needs etc. My
teacher basically told me I was thick.
My x best friend left me when I was about
17 for another girl and there group, she
got into sex and clubbing more than I did.
I eventually found out she tried cutting
her arms, so I went home and done the
same..It was a release. Then went out and
lost my virginity. Then that same year my
whole class in school came up to me and
said how I changed, and had a 'whatever'
out look for all there views. I was quite
and not the same since they said my
stepdad gave them evils at my party when I
was 15. I became bilimic when I was about
14, every one hated me cos I used to say I
didnt like my self, they said shut up your
skinny try being me. Also my mums
brother(my uncle) doesnt talk to my mum
any more cos she left my dad, I hate it
why cant every one be friends. Now I have
one friend and a bf. I feel asthough my
life isnt worth any thing. Noone seems
bothered about me or what I do. I cant
stand this any more. I really cant. I
want to break free, get a better job,
house and a life. Or better still, leave
for good.
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yummypinkblobs
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Dec 2004 Posts: 8 Location: outerspace
Posted: 12-07-04 10:16am
One thing I suggest you do is look outside
yourself and think of exactly why you are
depressed. Are there things you can
change in your life that would make you
happier? Are these things that upset you
overdramatized? I've been severely
unhappy for years. I barely graduated
from high school. I'm failing miserably
out of college. I have no friends, except
for stupid boys I talk to on the internet.
All my high school friends left me,
because I wasn't a prostitute, or I wasn't
religious enough. I don't have a job. I
live at home with my parents. I lay
around every friday and saturday night
doing nothing, not going out and hanging
out with friends, like normal college
students. I have stomach problems from
stress that also helps keep me from going
out. I used to get diarrhea everytime I
went to hang out with other kids. I have
terrible, terrible low self-esteem.
Sometimes I can't even look people in the
eye or talk to them with any confidence.
My life is going nowhere. Do I have a
reason to live? .............
Well,............ Yes! I started to look
at these problems, and decided to go to a
doctor. I found out that I have add,
depression and social anxiety disorder.
These are treatable problems. There is no
reason to let them run my life. I started
thinking about why I am depressed, and
it's silly. It's totally silly. I can
change my life. I spend too much time
thinking about how sad I am, and how
terrible my life is, when it doesn't have
to be that way. Now I spend my time
finding things that make me happy, and
keep working towards my goals. It isn't
as hard as i'd like to think it is.
Humans have created this hard life for
themselves. We worry about things that
don't really matter. It's unneccessary
and ridiculous. The world is not going to
end! Well...Hopefully not! If this does
not help, you should seriously seek help
from a doctor. If you're having problems,
please talk to someone about how you feel,
everytime you're feeling sad. I just
think you should spend today, as you're
reading this, thinking of all the things
that make you happy. It's all up to you.
Don't let depression bring you down and
keep you from having fun. You are in
control of your desinty. No one can stop
you, but you.
