Took my husb to the shrink w/ me the other
day. He told him I was an anorexic
wannabe who did it to get attention (just
because my weight is still normal I am a
"wannabe?"). I was mortified.
Ignored all the food fests around me
recently. Didn't touch a thing. Filled
up a plate to make it look like I was
eating and took the food to someone else.
Here's hoping that everyone else enjoys
their turkey & stuffing, honey ham,
sweet potato casserole and pumpkin pie.
Do you think i'm going to have any? No.
I don't deserve it.
Besides, every time I eat, it's like I
instantly gain 8 lbs in a day and I have
to spend a whole week taking it off. No
wonder i'm losing weight so slowly now.
And puleeze don't anyone tell me to stop.
As if it's my choice. I am way beyond
making any choices. And the shrink can't
help me. I won't lock myself up and i'm
not underweight so he can't lock me up
either.
Funny how you can go around smiling at
people all day long and they think you've
"recovered" when really it's just the
opposite. It's just that being fake is so
much easier when you learn to love
caffeine.
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ellua
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Nov 2004 Posts: 10
Re: Am I Hopeless Or What? Posted: 11-25-04 23:08pm
forced_therapy
wrote:
and puleeze don't anyone tell me to stop.
As if it's my choice. I am way beyond
making any choices. And the shrink can't
help me. I won't lock myself up and i'm
not underweight so he can't lock me up
either.
if this is how you truely feel, as though
you have no control and dont want anyone
else to take control either, then yes, you
are hopeless. You need to make the
decision for yourself, because no one else
is going to make it for you. If your
shrink cant help you, youre throwing away
your money; you need to be receptive or
you're wasting your time and their time.
You need something in your life that will
make you want to make the change in
yourself, for your health and for your
family and friends.
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forced_therapy
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 26 Jun 2004 Posts: 23
Posted: 11-27-04 18:53pm
Gee, thanks for the sympathy. I wasn't
necessarily looking for any, but you
didn't have to kick me when I was down,
either. Happy holidays to you, too!!
Obviously you have never suffered from an
eating disorder or a diet gone wrong,
which is what I really think this is.
As for my family and friends, they don't
care one bit. They just use it as an
excuse to put me down, just like you did.
Just another motivation to get thinner so
people like you and them can't treat me
badly anymore.
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mshanson
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Nov 2004 Posts: 102 Location: California
Posted: 11-28-04 22:08pm
:d don't give up hope! I am a recovering
anorexic & I know what it's like to
feel that you don't deserve to eat, to
enjoy life, even to live at all. I still
have times when I struggle to feed myself.
Ight now your brain is starving so you
can't think clearly. Weight has nothing
to do with it --- even a 'normal sized'
person can have, and even die from, an
eating disorder. Your shrink sounds like
he/she doesn't know about eating
disorders. Your husband is probably a
great guy but also is clueless. Call
around & find yourself a
counselor/nutritionist/program who can
really help you. They are out there, but
it may take some time & effort. Yes,
of course, you have to decide to help
yourself, but you also need others to help
--- this disease is too strong to fight
alone. You can do it!!!
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ladymarmalade99
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 31 Jul 2004 Posts: 42
Posted: 11-30-04 15:19pm
Forced_therapy, nobody here is trying to
put you down. Nobody is laughing at you
either. Most of us are here because we're
suffering or have recovered from an eating
disorder. It's really sad that you say
your family and friends don't care about
your eating disorder, but at least you can
come here and get some support. My
parents never even knew about my bulimia
because if I ever told them they would
only say that I had nothing better to do
with my spare time than throwing up my
food. So I chose not to tell them so that
they wouldn't upset me. I told my friends
instead. I'm sure some one cares about
you too. Even I care about you. I don't
even know you but I personally wish you
luck with this because seriously, no one
deserves to be stuck in this hell hole.
There is help out there. Listen to your
therapist. You are not hopeless.
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>?¿_BaByGuRL_?¿<
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 Jul 2004 Posts: 54
Posted: 12-01-04 01:47am
ladymarmalade99
wrote:
forced_therapy, nobody here
is trying to put you down. Nobody is
laughing at you either. Most of us are
here because we're suffering or have
recovered from an eating disorder. It's
really sad that you say your family and
friends don't care about your eating
disorder, but at least you can come here
and get some support. I'm sure some one
cares about you too. Even I care about
you. I don't even know you but I
personally wish you luck with this because
seriously, no one deserves to be stuck in
this hell hole. There is help out
there. Listen to your therapist. You
are not
hopeless.
can I second that?
I hope ur alright,
there is help out there, but I guess u'll
only see it when your ready... Until
then, I hope u stay safe and please
continue talking- whether it b to us or
someone else- cos' it helps, and believe
that u'll get better one day
I hope ur alright,
there is help out there, but I guess u'll
only see it when your ready... Until
then, I hope u stay safe and please
continue talking- whether it b to us or
someone else- cos' it helps, and believe
that u'll get better one day
