In my hole intire life i"ve had strong feelings only for 2guys,imet many many guys in my life,but those two were the strongest than all,ibroke up with the 1st,though he was the 1st guy ireally care about ididnt feel that our love was complete,since we met on day 1,idont know why,but ijust felt it wont continue,the relation was not 100% complete,no relation is perfect,but oh well,so we broke up,days passed and passed....Imet this guy who ifell in love with and really felt he is the one,we had adream almost about everything,love,marrige,our house,even our future kids....,days passed and he started changing,at 1st ididn"t know the reasone,but then I discovered he had an affair with his friend(afemale) that started when him and I had afight for the 1st time,iknew this gurl wanned ta take him from me,because she was asking me questions alotta times about me and him and the whole relation thing,and he truely broke up with me like 2 months ago,claiming that he isnt the persone ithink he is,and that ilove him so much and he thinks its wrong,because it"s not gonna turn out the way ithink it will,hes not that "great" according to him,icryed alot,and ifelt he was so cruel with me,he was cold,iknew it was gonna b her,see alot of our friends know who she really is,and what shes really made of,im not saying that because she took my ex from me,im saying that because if u wanna know the funny part.....Here it comes!!!
When she heared about one of her ex"s being with agirl from our friends,she started fallowing him again,calling him,and etc....... And though she was with my ex then,she didn"t care about my ex"s feelings,she claimed she jus wanned ta say sorry to her ex because shes the one who dumped him,but wow!! U know why? She broke her ex and our friend up, got back to her ex,dumped my ex,and hurted my friends feelings! When my friend confronted her asking why? All she said was,"iwon.....U loose...Hes with me on the phone everyday,telling me neat stuff he wants to do to me....So give it up....Me and him r back together...And u r out!! Dream on ****",my friend cryed for like 3 complete days,non stopping,and never was happy since,and that woman doesnt even care about all what shes done to me and my friend and my ex who still has strong feelings for her apparently,the most funniest part is,shes amother and iheared shes pregnant again like 4 months or something,iwonder!!!!,iwonder how would she rais her kids??? On lies and cheating??? And whats she gonna gain from all this???.Iknow this is atherapy site,but icant help it asking my self the whole time,icant stop thinking of that,icry everyday,im so depressed,im skipping alot of classes by being absent,icant study,icant eat and icant drink,im having abad case of insomnia and icant even sing or dance like iused to before,ihave aulcer and ihad acase of broken nerves last month,idont know what to do,after my 1st relation ithought it was so hard but hell,this is the worst of all! Im so tired,what to do??? Why is life always unfair???,ijust saw this gurl like afew hours ago,and shes laughing and happy like nothing is even going on!!! What is wrong with this world? Why did people become so cruel??? Can any one expalin? Im tired,what is the medicine of that? Because icant take this anymore!!