Hi. I am new to this forum and was
hoping someone could give me some advice.
I am 29 years old. First dxed w/ clinical
depression in 1998 and then when mother
died of suicide in 2001 was dxed with
bipolar disorder. I also have a
tremendous fear of dying constantly.(ex:
I had a pap smear done 3 weeks ago and
until I received the letter from my doc.
That everything was okay, I had myself
convinced I had cancer.) I have extreme
boudts of panic attacks, and as strange as
this seems, my mother talks to me in my
head. Well, the p.Doc. That dxed me
with bipolar told me that it was a mental
thing that I hear my mother and that it
would go away in time as part of the
greiving process. This was 3 years ago
and her voice is only getting stronger and
louder. Actually, I can only get about
2-3 hours of sleep a night because she
won't allow it. She says if she can't
sleep then I shouldn't either. I have
even mentioned this problem to my family
doc.,(big mistake,) now she treats me
like I am some kind of freak and
recommended finally, after asking her
several times for her opinion that I seek
help at a hospital. The only problem is
that I went to 3 different hospitals for
help and nobody will treat me unless I am
a threat to myself or others. Which I am
not. I am on medicaid and the p.Doc.
That I see is the only one that will
accept the medical card in my county. I
would have to travel at least 100 miles or
more to get to the next closest one and
that is just not possible. Also, just
the ohter day I received some paperwork to
fill out for my pending ssdi and I
answered the question about do I ever hear
voices, yes. I also put that nobody will
beleive me and I have not had the chance
to be treated. Was that a bad idea??
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Ruby of the Water
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Jul 2004 Posts: 43 Location: Michigan
Psychotic Episodes Posted: 11-20-04 13:24pm
So you are unbalanced in your brain
chemistry...
You are doing a great job advocating for
youself.
Please get 5 other people who love you to
start learning and understanding what is
happening to you.
Friends, family, they all love you just
the way you are. They see beyond your
diagnosis.
Keep going on the ssi. You are strong.
No I do not believe that you errored when
you described your 'hearing voices'.
Tell what you know tell the facts.!
Ruby
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pitklanleader1
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Nov 2004 Posts: 4
Ruby- You Are a Life Saver!!!! Posted: 11-20-04 15:13pm
Ruby-
thank you so very much for replying to my
post. It has been up for at least a week
and everyone seems to be avoiding it like
the plague. I post on forums like these
to get some imput about what people think
I should do and sometimes just some badley
needed simpathy. I don't really have
anyone to talk to about my situation and I
thank god for forums like these. Thanx
again and I hope you have a great weekend.
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 12-02-04 18:32pm
While I haven't had my mum talk to me I do
have a number of friends of all ages sizes
etc etc - with no (at least no diagnosed
or even symptoms of mental issues) mental
issues & they see spirits, talk to
them ,see auras etc so I would suggest
that you check your local paper, even
phone book etc for spiritualist churches
(not the loonies who prey on people &
charge a mint - real people who either
charge nothing or just a donation - same
as in church) & talk to them about
this - they helped my daughter who saw
spirits from a young age & then had
one keep appearing who made her
uncomfortable - all she had to do in her
case was ask the spirit to please leave as
she felt unciomfortable - if that failed
she was told to ask good non-mischievious
spirits to protect her.
You can laugh, or not, but it won't hurt
to try & sure won't cost like drs etc
nor have the side effects of meds!! &
it may even help!!
