i am a 32 year old single male I need help
please if possible I dont know what else
to do I am seeing a counselor and I am on
my 10th day of 10mg of paxil. I dont
know what is wrong with me but everyday at
work at around 11am I just start feeling
tired rundown lethargic and I get a
headache and I cant even talk I slur my
words so I just avoid dealing with people
and I just work at my desk and count the
minutes till I get to go home and go to
sleep. I usually sleep for about 2 hours
then I feel better but I still feel
depressed. I think maybe I am depressed
because I am not happy with the way I look
and I am not happy with the amount of
money I am making (50k a year after
rediculous overtime all year). I cant
fall asleep without chainsmoking 3
cigarettes and I dont smoke all day! I
never feel like waking up I just feel like
I need more sleep I am not comfortable
around people I feel like I am stupider
than everyone else so I get nervous I just
wish I could make everyone laugh and I
wish I could just say smart things. I
do cardio each morning for 30 minutes and
I cook my own healthy meals, breakfast
through dinner so I know it's not my diet
or health. I quit drinking coffee
because im afraid it makes my social
anxiety worse and im also afraid it keeps
me up at night (now if I have coffee I
have about to 1.5 cups before I leave to
work at 5am and no more for the rest of
the day). My dad was an alcoholic and
so I guess I am too but my job has forced
me to not drink a few months at a time but
when I do drink I have this fantasy of
being with a girl and having sex while we
are both drunk and passing out but I
usually dont have a girl so I just drink
till I pass out. I just feel like I am
not happy about who I am because of how I
look and because of how much money I make
and I think that is what is causing me to
feel lethargic and just want to go to
sleep a lot!! Please tell me what am I
supposed to do?? My psychiatrist told me
I am a little hyper and paxil is making me
more relaxed but I liked being hyper! I
did a lot of different drugs like acid,
xtc, crack, crystal, coke, pot and I think
maybe all those drugs from ages 15yrs to
about 25yrs made me want to be hyper or
feel good all the time. The worst thing
that made me go to the psychologist and
psychiatrist was that everyday at work at
around 11am I just start feeling tired
rundown lethargic and I get a headache and
I cant even talk I slur my words so I just
avoid dealing with people and I just work
at my desk and count the minutes till I
get to go home.
