I have a suggestion. Stop doing this to yourself. You wont stop! You say you will but you wont. And if you do youll gain back 2 tmes as much weight

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Why would I want to stop than if I was going to gain 2 the amont of weight? At least I will be skinny.

I think you know yourself that this is disordered eating, otherwise you would be posting under "diets" not "eating disorders".

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If u need ne1 to talk to honey im here


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Yes I know it's a disorder, but I dont care, I just want to be skinny.

Thats not enough food- listen and listen close because I am about to scare your ass into submission- do you want to die? Do you want to have kids? Do you want to be healthy and actually live? Stop what you are doing and stop now- if you only knew how many times my ass has been in the hospital and the crap I have been through, you would be eating a big fat pizza right now- your weight isnt everything my dear- the most important thing? Who you are inside- because if you dont love who you are on the inside, then you cant love anyone else- it starts here, in your heart and mind- and ya know what? Be happy that you weigh 112 pounds- you are alive- most people dont have it so lucky- if you care to talk, message me-

I'm trying to eat normally now because my mom freeked on me since she caught onto it. Im really going to try and eat normally it sounds easy, but it's really hard i've tried before. Thank you everyone who replyed. -sarah

Okay i'm really scared. I dont know what is wrong with me. My last entry I was so committed to start eating healthy, and not throwing up. Well there is no difference. The next day I went right back to just carrots, and celery. Last saturday I ate a bowl of cheros, and right afterwards I threw it up, and when I was throwing up blood was coming up too! I don't know what that means. I havent thrown up since then, but I still eat the same. I try I really do, but I seriously cant do it! If anyone knows why I could have been bleeding could you please reply? Thank you.

Sarah,
you must seek help from a professional who is expert in treating teens with eating disorder problems. This can start by talking with a primary care physician or being honest with your mother. Tell her what has been going on and tell her you want help. Part of getting help will probably involve talking to a psychologist or psychiatrist. There is no shame in needing help, even as a teenager. You guys are facing a lot of stress, peer pressure, and looking at a screwed up world filled with violence, wars, economic problems and heaven knows what else. First always remember there is only one person like yourself and that is great. Your own personality, your own interessts and own dislikes, your capabilities, talents, the way you smile, talk, dance, or whatever. Learn how to like yourself and not worry about what other kids think of you. I f they don't accept you the way you are then they are not worth having as a friend. Hard to understand when you are so young but it is the truth. I am 59 and the mother of three grown boys. Two are autistic and I think they, if they could, would tell you that life can be very cruel but they do extremely well are out and about and have good friends who accept them as they are. Honey, don't go on like this, get help and feel better about yourself. I advocated, voluntarily for the disabled, street kids, children's rights, and others for 35 years. I have helped many children out there just like you who need help.Don,t be afraid to take that first step.

God bless and keep you, he cares and so do i
love leslie

High school is nothing but tons upon tons of peer pressure to look your best and fit in, right? Wrong!!! Don't worry about how you look... You are only a teenager, you are not on the market for "mr. Right" who'll give you your dream wedding yet. Those girls and guys who make you feel like you don't look good enough as you are, they are the ones who are insecure. I have always been at my proper weight and size for my age and height, being that my father was in the army... I had to follow the military standards. I am now 28, 5'8", and I weigh 158 lbs, and I also have 3 kids. According to the charts, I am on the exact borderline between normal and overweight. I asked the doctor about it because I didn't want to go over the line. She ran tests, and discovered that I have almost no body fat... I'm all muscle. Muscle always weighs more than fat.
Just because you are heavier does not mean you are unhealthy or fat. Don't let yourself slip into thinking you are fat. I became anorexic in high school because of peer pressure to be that perfect size 4 or less. I almost lost the best friend I ever had because of it, too. He threatened never to speak to me again unless I stopped. I had my first child before my senior year of high school. I was 115 when I was 6.5-7 months pregnant, and had to gain at least 30 lbs to safely give birth. I wore size 6 shorts to the hospital that day. The birth nearly killed me. After the birth, I was hosptialized for several days because I kept passing out; the strain was too much for my body. After returning home, I started my sr year with my boyfriend. Under strict orders from his mom and my doctor, I started eating and working out daily in school. I went from 148 lbs after the birth, to maintaining 130 all year. I slowly started gaining to a proper weight standard, but I kept working out and watching what I ate. Now when I tell people I weigh 158, they call me nuts, saying I can't possibly weigh that much. I am around soldiers alot, being an army spouse, and most of my friends are pretty good at judging weight. One soldier didn't believe me, so he picked me up - or at least tried to. He claimed he could lift a minimum of 130 lbs easy. He couldn't get me but 6 inches in the air and only for a few seconds.
Don't kill yourself because you think you're a little overweight. Before you jump into any diets or drastic eating changes, talk it over with your doctor. Get the facts: are you actually fat, or is it just muscle? What is the standard weight for your age and height? Remember, you won't just kill yourself by doing this... You're going to kill something in everyone around you. If you think you are in need of a trin-down, try eating proper foods (well-balanced), and maybe add a daily workout regime, like tae-bo or pilates. Which would be more expensive to you and your family: a $20-$50 workout video set and balanced meal system, or several thousand dollars of medical bills, or possibly funeral bills... You decide.

I am 28, mother of three, 5'8", I wear sizes 7-10, and I weigh 158 lb... But I am also one of the best looking wives in my husband's brigade... And if I wasn't married, I have already received plenty of dating offers from tons of other guys. Am I happy with my weight? Yes, I truly am. I know the facts, and I know that I am healthy. And my keeping a good outlook on my weight and size makes my family happy as well.
Don't kill yourself over one or two sizes of jeans... You're still growing... When you're older chances are you won't be that size again. Jeans come and go... You outgrow a pair and buy some more. Your body is growing too, but you can't buy a new one if you wear it out...

Want to know what you should do? Go out! Get out and have fun and see what its like to enjoy a part of life that isnt centered around a stick of celery. That might just be the only way out of this weight infatuation. I'm not going to lie and say I know what you're going through, because nobody knows exactly what anyone is going through. However, I will definitely try to relate and say that if you wake up every day thinking about a celery stick then you might want to try waking up tomorrow thinking about how thats all you think about, and eventually how that stick of celery or shriveled up raisin might not be the most important thing anymore. But I guess that just might not seem like a reasonable option to you until you discover or experience something new in your life...A meaning to your life possibly. Because if you dont, all you'll ever really be able to say for yourself and your accomplishments is how you were able to live your life based on the effects of a stick of celery. Dig real deep and figure it out -- is weight really the issue here?

Did the blood scare you sarah because it scared me I wouldn't have stoppped otherwise you need to talk to a councellor, start off telling your mom she obviously is worried about you, then get help because you need help now.....I hope your doing okay you haven't posted in a while....Pm if you like

Hi
i know what you are going through. I am 33 and I had done what you are doing since I was 18. I have 4 children and thank god they are all healthy. I can tell you that you will find later in life that your teeth will become weak and may have to be pulled. The vomiting eats the enamal off of your teeth and that can't be fixed. Your metabolism will eventually be so wrecked that no matter how hard you try to lose weight it will be extremely hard. If you want to lose weight by just eating celery and raisins and get to your goal weight and then start eating "healthy" again, it probably won't work. You will gain back a lot more weight right away. My suggestion is to just start eating healthy, do it gradually if you need to. Don't starve yourself. Honestly, I know you aren't thinking of the long term effects, I know you just want immediate results but try to picture how it will effect you in the future. Just take care of your body now. Appearence isn't as important as you think. Being a good person is. Treat your body good now.

Any questions feel free to contact me!