Chanda and gaby, I definitely understand what you are going through. Everytime I went through a hard point in my life, especially when it involved family, I would catch baby fever. I guess I felt like nobody really loved me so I wanted to make someone who would and someone I could love back. And plus babies being so cute don't help! But I will tell you now, it is the greatest, worst, happiest, saddest, agonizing, ecstatic thing you will ever go through. It has so many ups and downs. Pregnancy isn't even bad compared to the real thing. I had the easiest pregnancy in the world, so I didn't get a real wake-up call until he was born. It is so amazing when they are born and you love them with every little piece of yourself, but it's not until you get home, and they are crying, and you have changed their diaper, fed them, burped them, dressed and undressed them and rocked them and they are still screaming and you don't know what's wrong is when it really hits you. And that's the easy part, when they are young. Basically, they wake up, you feed change and burp them, then rock them back to sleep. But as they get older they need toys, and constant supervision, and they get bored and fuss for you to play so you get nothing else done. And then they start throwing tantrums at 7 months old, and you don't know whether to discipline them or not or even how to do it. People telling you what to do and how to do it. Saying don't feed them mac n cheese when they like t and do just fine. Plus, you go to school and work a job and feel like a failure cuz it seems you never have enough time for them. And it makes it so much harder when dad walks away, and you are emotionally devastated and feel like you will never make it. Even though you know you will. Don't get me wrong, I love joshua and wouldn't trade him for the world, but I miss being a kid. I miss picking up and taking off. I miss reading books and watching tv, I miss sleeping and being lazy! Please think long and hard about this girls, especially you gaby, I know I am your age, but thats why I am telling you this, because i've been there and I know. You are not ready. So just wait, and I promise you will enjoy it so much more.
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