Hey girls.... How is everybody doing?? I
just need to vent right now!!
Well me and my mom are suppose to go to
austriala in feb or march....*my dad and
his side of the family lives there and my
3 half sisters too* he is going to pay for
me and my nana and papa are gonna pay for
my mom. My mom doesnt have the money to
pay for herself. When he asked me I was
so exitced!! I have only seen my dad once
in grade 7. I would love to see my family
I never thought I would. Well lately I
have been thinking about I am not sure if
I want to go there anymore... Like its
taken him 17 years to ask me to go there??
Like what!! Err angers me off.
When I saw him in grade 7 I was sooo happy
I couldnt belive my dad was right there...
Him and my mom were thinking about
getting back toghther like I never thought
I would acutlly have a mom and a dad... I
was so happy... Than when he went back to
austriala me and my mom found out he was
.M.A.R.R.I.E.D. And she was 8 months
preggy!!
everything he told
us was a lie.... I can not trust him and
I never will...
When my mom and dad were married he
cheated on her many times and while she
was preggy with me. Hes also an
achloic(sp?) and he use to do coke...
Well my mom lefted him and came back to
canada and had me... I was always mad at
my mom for leaving him when I was
younger.... Becuase all my friends had a
mom and a dad.... But when I was 10 she
finally told me I had a half sister.... I
was so angry at her for not telling me b4
than... Than my mom explain to me how my
dad was.... I am so happy now that she
lefted him... My life would of been so
differnt.... Never really getting to see
my nana and papa that I love so much...
My dad now has a new wife kate and they
have 3 almost 4 year old twin girls peri
and jamie.... She was a b*tch when I
called him once...
Ok well I am not sure if I wanna go to
austriala like thats not my family... My
family is my mom nana and papa... Like im
scared to go cuz its gonna be so hard to
leave them.... God I am crying right now
...
My dad never wanted anything to do with me
and now all of a sudden he does?? And my
dads family is very mean like I am fat and
I know it and they will tell me if I am ya
know? I need to loose weight b4 I go
there and I dont know if I will be able
to....
Sorry this is long and very confusing...
I just needed to vent...You dont have to
post if you dont want too... Ahhh life
sux right now... I feel like sh*t I feel
so ugly and fat.... Like I wish I was
skinney and all my probmlems(sp?) would be
gone... So many people call me ugly and
it hurts so much...I have been called fat
and ugly my whole life... I just want
people to look at me and think im
pretty...... No guys at school look at
me... They look at the pretty skinney
girls.... F*ck sorry this is soooo long I
needed to do this....
.Alison xoxo
