My doctor put me on morphine. I had no choice. And now.....I'm all hopped up on this crap. I'm only 31. I've been told to excercise, (i work as a utility locator, I walk an average of 20 to 30 miles a day, carrying up to 75lbs including my own body weight.) I think that qualifies as excercise. So now what? I work. Right now feel like having drinking until i'm stupid, screwing until I can't anymore. I just want to forget about everything.