This topic probably general but I need help. I am so confused I don't know what to do. I am crying as a write this. When I was a young teenager I got charges and probation made me go into lock up after that my case got transfered to children and youth services cuz my dad and mom were alcoholics. My dad is still but my mom has been clean for like 3 years and she live with my aunt and uncle so she doesn't have her own place cuz she cannot afford it. So I cant live with my mom. I live in a placement(group home) and they are christ centered which means everything is about jesus and god. Like you can't have sex before marriage or like you can't drink even if you aren't drunk. I don't mind the whole god things cuz he saves us right but this is my problem. I have a daughter who is almost 4 and she is my world. I love her so much. Her father has no idea about her cause I never told him. I been at this place for like 3 1/2 years so I didn't have a chance to tell him because I live far away from him. I asked around and people said he lives in new york. Thats one of my problems I don't know what to do cuz I don't know his last name. My second problem is that I finally after 3 1/3 years got a home pass to go see my mom for an overnight which was awesome. I see my mom on a regular basis but to be home was like oh my god awesome. I cried when I had to come back here. My problem is that I want to go home so bad but I can't and I know I am depressed now. On top of that I haven't had sex in a long time since 3 years ago and when I was home I had sex with my friends and when we were having sex he cumed in me and I not pregnant cuz I got my period but after I had sex with him I felt different and it smelt. My cousin told me when she entered the room that is smelled so I am thinking he gave me something. I had sex with him on friday and saturday and sunday I got my period and I never smell cuz I am self-conscious about my body but I don't know what to do. Anyone with help get at me.

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april