I don't know what to do anymore. I always feel like I need attention as a child I would lie about anything just so people would pay attention to me whether it was doing something to get arrested or exaggrating illnesses. As i'm getting older (19) it seems to be getting worse. All I can think of is doing something really big to get a lot of attention, and then these thoughts come into my head to hurt somebody really bad or hurt multiple people and I will really get a lot attention. I am very afraid that I may hurt somebody I love. The really weird thing is that I just don't want positive attention it has to be attention that is achieved by doing bad things. I don't know what to do I think about killing myself to keep myself from hurting someone in my family. I don't think I can beat this thing, please help me!