Hi, my name is melisa and im 15. I have had depression since last year but it really wasnt that bad until this year. I have went to the doctor a couple times and I take medication for it and my headaches but it just dont seem to get better. I thought for awhile it was better but everything here at home is just whoreshit! My brothers tell me that im worthless and I dont do caca which I do everything here at home cause my mom and dad work. My younger sisters are all constintley fighting, driving me insain. My dads been being a problem with me and my boyfriend. No one has faith in me. I feel like im chained down. I feel like a nothing here. When I get all pissed off I feel like just going and doing something stupid....I dont think im to the point of killing my self but its been in my head. Sometimes I just wish I wasnt here. Last night my dad ticked me off and I got pissed cause he like doesnt want me and my boyfriend to be together at like all. So I went to my room and threw everything in my room at the wall, everything on my bed went flying onto the floor. I was talking to my boyfriend at the time and he heard how pissed I was and I told him I was going to go. He asked where and I said I didnt know and didnt care but I was goin to go and hes like no I wont let you go cause your pissed and I know what you do when your pissed. So thankfully he got me to stay on the phone with him for awhile to calm me down alittle. I started crying cause I was soo mad. I cry alot for no apparent reason or over just dumb stuff. Last night wasnt exactly something dumb though. But I can still feel all my depression built up in me just waiting to come out. My sisters pissed me off again tonight and really got to me so its even higher. I have a feeling when everyone (mom, dad, and brothers) get home from work im gonna get alot of caca. I just dont know what to do. The only person that can calm me down is my boyfriend and hes at work and works late at night so I dont get to talk to him much. Please help me!!! Thanks