hiya nervous stomach,
Firstly, as you know, we know what you're going through - which is one of the good things about this forum - so don't be apologetic in posting. It's good to say what's going on whether good or bad. I know some people say it can be a 'release' to write things too, so maybe there is some positive sub-conscious effect?!
One or two times this year I have felt very very poorly. For me, the answer is always to get outside of where I'm living and just go out or do something completely different. In my opinion, the worst thing that I can do when feeling really bad, is to lock myself away in my home and sit on front of the tv or whatever - because all I end up doing in that situation is eat rubbish food - and for me at least, that makes things worse. So, at this stage, being at home seems to have a negative effect on me.
So, if you can, I would spend as much of every day you can for the next week or so, outside of your home/work etc., doing completely random things that you would never ever usually do. Go for really long walks. Visit a town you've never been to before. Do some kind of activities that will take your mind off. Start off with 'safe' places first maybe that you know you won't be caught out - i.e, perhaps where you know there is a rest room or noise or whatever makes you feel more at ease.
In a post I mentioned on the previous page, I went away on holidays for a week or so, with everyday making me feel better and better. Before it however, I was in a pretty bad state. Even getting on to the plane I was almost breakng into a sweat!! Or even the thought of standing in a quiet elevator!! But, after 5/6 days of doing things yet being in a position where I didnt *HAVE* to do them but *WANTED* to do them, it really really made a huge difference to me - and my apprehension was so much lower than before. And indeed my confidence sky-rocketed! Which was nice. Now, I can't say right now I am as good as I was the day I left - but - it's given me that mentality where I want to get out and do things that I have been hiding away from.
eg. I went to the dentist AGAIN today. More time in a quiet waiting room that I would never have done a few months ago. That's twice in 2 weeks!
So, I would suggest just getting out there - spending major blocks of time away from home - i.e, instead of going out and coming back in 2/3 hours - go out and spend the whoooooooole day out. It's funny, a cup of tea/coffee is so much more welcome when you felt you have worked for it! Actually - if you can go on a holiday - do it!! I was so skepitcal about mine - I don't need it etc - but I did!
The other thing I would say is, watch the medication. Although I didn't major in it, I studied chemistry at college level for a few years. One thing I became quite aware of is side-effects. I would watch out that whatever medication you are on doesn't have any adverse side-effects such as depression etc. Doctors, around here at least, just do not warn the patients of possible symptoms. I know a friend that once took an anti-acne prescription and the guy spiralled into a depression. Indeed, subsequently he was told that there are worse effects even....
Anyway, just something to watch. Maybe cut down or try and cut out medication. I know, you're probably thinking I'm crazy, but if you are in a position to do it, why not? I take, and have never taken, any such medication to try and cope with this or the anxiety, despite the fact that like you, I find anxiety so hard to deal with. I'm lucky that exercise gives me some release though, and after a few hours running, I'm as calm as the next guy. For an hour or two at least..!
The other thing is, if anything happens at work - just say you aren't feeling well that you have some stomach problem. I'm always ready with an excuse but I find that when I'm ready, I just don't need it. No one will judge you, in fact they'll probably be sympathetic - that's even if they notice.
Most of all, I would say stay positive. I know it's a terrible thing to have - and an easy thing to say, but today I went running and came home to see the opening ceremony of the Para-Olympics, where there were 300 deaf girls dancing together in time. I suppose this problem has maybe made me a bit more sensitive - because - well, a few tears came to my eyes during the ceremony watching these people achieving amazing things, yet with such disabilities. I find it inspirational. So, if you can, take heart!