I have had them for only 8 months and after only one sleep deprived eeg that was normal and one CAT scan that was normal (I'm 44), they are convinced that mine are stress induced and not "eplipetic" at all. I feel crazy. Now, I'm about to go into the hospital for 5 days for "long term montoring where I'll where an eeg cap and be under a video camera 24 hours a day until I have enough seizures (if I have them at all) so they can see if I have brain waves that match noted brain waves that match normal epileptic patterns. I'm currently on 225 mg of Topamax and 750 mg of Depokote ER and 2 mg of Clonopin and a host of Cardio drugs due CABG surgergy 9 months ago to correct a heart defect that caused a heaart attack at 43. I also had a hysterectory (leaving the overies) 9 months before the CABG. I can't help but wonder if all three are related but none of the doctors, the cardiologist, the ob-gyn surgeon and the epilelptologist have failed to connect something major. But all seem to think that the seizures seem to have prsented so late in life (43, as I recovering from CABG surgery), that they were more than likey stress induced, and therefore not epilepy, that I'm scared that my mind is taking over my body in ways that I can't understand. Epilepsy, I can understand - this - stress induced seizures, I can't. Am I going to end up in the pysch ward on thorizine? I'm terrifed? How can someone as intelligent as I am, a executive at a fortune 300 firm, do this to myself? I'm been operating like this way for 24 years? I'm fit. My CABG surgery was a defect, not due to blockages or high blood pressure. I feel my next stop is a padded cell if I can truely invoke a tonic-clonic seizure because of stress. How do they treat this? My seizures have went from max of 6 clusters a day to once every six weeks now on meds. But I do know that there are signs that I may exhibit stress induced ones based on what i read. My eyes close (according to observers, I bow my back hard, I cry (from frustration as I come out of the seizure - not during the seizure and I am not sure, but I don't know if I have assymetrical or symmetrical movements in my my limbs during my seizures). I have them both in public, alone, outside, inside, doesn't matter. I am just afraid on either score, one part of me would like for it to be triggered by stress - it seems he easiest to fix, the other part of me doesn't want to be labeled as so weak that my brain can't handle stress and mainfest such a response to it that it excudes such a horrible and violent response in my body. Why can't I just scream and yell like other people? Ok, that was a joke?
Anybody living with stress induced epilepsy? What is the treatment? Drugs? Therapy? HALP??? I feel lost and alone. In four weeks, I'm about to enter a rat cage and be video montitered with wires on my head for week with all meds taken of my head and it scares the living *bleep* out of me. Please ANYBODY, help me prepare. I'm begging you.