Ok.. After a while of holding back, I had to ask.. I don't mean to cause rucus or anything and i'm not mad or upset right now.. Just confused and disappointed...

Why is it that I see you guys giving people help all the time and going "awl it's ok hun, we're here for you" to your close friends and such, but when I don't even outright say i'm depressed or anything but you all begin to think I am.. You say that I am a big baby and an attention seeker? I asked this in another thread but I don't think I will get much of a reply out of there. As for the whole thing about yahoo.. I say things I don't mean when I get upset, same as you guys do and I made a mistake.. That was a bit out of line and I admit it and apoligize..

As for you all who say I need help.. Fyi, I have a doctors appt thursday and i'm getting a referral for a neurologist to see if I have a certain disorder but I will try to cover as many areas as I can and see what I can do to help with whatever is causing this problem I have.. Right now i'm having self worth issues and kind of sensitive to criticism and that's why I get so defensive sometimes.. Not expecting you to care.. But just so you understand. Who knows... It might be the depo that's causing me to wig out.. Idk.. But i'm not getting off it if that's the case because it's the best bc I can get right now.. Anyway.. I just needed to ask this question and get a few answers..


One more thing.. Who really wants me gone? I know you can't make me leave, i'm not trying to be stupid... I just dont want to waste your time by being on here if you don't want me here.. I may pop in every once in a while and read some posts so don't freak out if you get many views and no replies.. Sometimes its me reading to see what's up but I don't feel I should say anything because it may cause more harm than good..

Mommabear.. Sorry for what I said about you.. I was just really upset at the time.. If you want to hold a grudge go ahead but i'm apoligizing for the way I acted and if you accept... Good.. If not.. That's fine too.. And btw... Good luck with all that's going on in your life, hopefully it all works out for you.


Pitterpatter.. I wasn't being sarcastic when I said goodluck.. I said it like that because I wasn't sure if I should say it or not.. I wasn't being rude.

Edit: ps.. Fyi.. I don't hate kids, and if it wasn't for a few issues I have.. I would actually like having one in the future and no.. I will more than likely not abort if I ever did get pregnant in the future.. I would prob adopt or keep it. I already have a deep regret that you could compare to post abortion syndrom but no abortion involved.. Just comparable by the type of regret.. I was actually thinking about coming to you guys about a few things that are upsetting me.. But I guess not now.. Not to be rude at all or mean but it seems so far you only support those who fit in your clique.. That's the impression that I get.. I may be wrong.. Idk