i'm 16 years old and I think I might have an eating disorder... About a year ago my parents found out that I was throwing up my food and they sent me to tharapy and I went just to get them off my shoulders. I went for about a month... And I told my parents that i'm not going to do it again and I didn't for awhile... But after like a month and a half I started again since I saw they trusted me again and they weren't looking at my every move. So I would eat and throw it up and I would eat in the middle of the night and then throw it up.... I just feel sooo guilty about eatting... I don't want to get fat.... I'm 4' 11'' and I was 110 and I hated it.... I want to be like 90 pounds and I have a lot of work to do to get there... I'm like 99or 100 now and I even join cross country to try to lose more wieght, but its hard...I hate throwing up.. I really do...I want to stop but it I stop i'll get fat and if I get fat i'll hate myself for it and I really want to tell someone but I can't bring myself to do it... My parents were disappointed in me once... I don't want to do that to them again... I hate this sooo much... My throat is starting to hurt all the time and i'm feeling more trapped every passing day....I don't know what to dooo!!!! God help me....I'm dieing inside, with all my sercerts