I haven't been in a situation exactly like yours - but I do know what it's like to live with depression.

I'm on prozac and trileptal, and the occasional xanax...

If your medications are making you not eat and not sleep, talk to your doctor immediately... Most likely he/she won't take you off them cold turkey, but who can say.

Wish I could give you more specific advice, but just know that someone here is listening.

Hey i'm a college student too, and i've resently been told I have add...(which sure does answer a lot of questions) and i've been put on adderall...Last month it was 15mg morning and 15mg evening and now i'm just doing 20mg adderall xr in the morning. Anyways..I'm about 5'4" 5'5" and I wieghed about 115lbs before I started which is totally fine but now i'm down to 110...Now i'm not glad i'm taking adderall cuz its making me lose wieght and the only reason I want to keep taking it is cuz it helps very much when i'm in class and doing homework etc. This is probably because I wasn't really over wieght before...Like I was pretty darn happy with my weight before...You know just mad at the little be of skin you could grab..But the best way to help that is working out...Anyways though what i'm getting at is that I can't say that deep down i'm not happy about losing 5 lbs..But if I lose anymore its really not a good thing...But anyways...My point here is that my main concern is gaining the ability to focus...The fact that you are sooo concerned about the wieght issue...I really hope makes you get help...Think about it if I were to meet you right now in person..The last thing I would notice is your wieght...Dude more then half the american population is overwieght..Even if someone is overwieght they are still the majority...Just because you look at a modern model and see ribs and no boobs does not mean thats what sexy...Would you want a boney guy or a meaty sexy guy??? Moveing on..The main reason for eating disorders is that it gives you something to control...I dont know much about this..Cuz personally with add I have a hard time controlling much of anything and dont really care...But all i'm saying is that I wish all of you the best and I love you girls...And soo do so many other people...So please for the ones who love you get help! You've already accomplished a huge step just by recognizing you have a problem....Give your body and mind..What it really deserves..Love!

well i cant say i have had the same addiction or issues with that particular drug, but i know exactly how you feel. if you ever need someone to talk to, because i know i do at times, feel free to IM me at arrilikepirates ...im pretty much online a lot so i should respond if you do IM me. either way...i do not really feel very comfortable sharing this but i have dealt with amphetamine addiction as well as general drug addiction in order to suppress my appetite...i feel that like you, i need someone to talk to who i can relate to and who knows what life is like feeling out of control and not quite sure knowing what to do because there is no one who understands. i would love to talk to you because i think we have a lot in common and much to share with one another. so i hope to hear from you, but if not then good luck with everything and i hope you can find the help you need to feel better. =)