New to Dysthymia: Seeking Alternative Therapy Posted: 09-30-04 19:42pm
Last week I finally went to a psychiatrist
and told her my life story, all the ups
and downs, everything. At the end of it
all, she told me she thought I had
dysthymia, as well as some strong
psychological lingerings that, I hope, are
getting treated through my individual and
group therapy sessions.
But both my therapists (individual and
group) are pushing the medication route,
and as a physically sensitive, active,
outgoing sort of girl, taking pills just
doesn't make a lot of sense to me right
now. I'm socially active, have a lot of
friends, have a successful career going,
and always eat and sleep well. I've just
got these knee-jerk emotional reactions to
certain relational situations (friends or
intimate) that, no matter what I do, send
me down and down; or rather, knock me into
a state of physical disruption and
coldness. Usually I can function well in
this state, "faking" life in a way that
doesn't feed the sadness inside. My hope
is that through "practicing" outwardly
feeling good, the inside feelings will
follow.
And so my question is - both in and
outside of therapy sessions - how can I
support myself through the process of
realigning and reworking th emotional
grooves i've worn in myself through years
of low self-esteem and indecision? Yoga?
Dance? Valerian root, st. John's wort,
etc.? What strategies can I rely on when
I feel myself going down? What can I do
to remain up, without the medication?
What do you all do?
My latest strategy: when i'm going down,
get on the phone and call whoever I can,
and just be relational, and talk. It
distracts me from the coldness inside, and
doesn't let me go down any farther.