Thanks ya'll. Lately, I have been kind of depressed, chanda. I am about to cry again, and I don't even know why. I need a vacation from life. I have to listen to jonathan (sr.), whinning and throwing fits in my ear all day. I have to deal with my mothers pissy ass attitude whenever she decides to come home. And nobody cares about me. I mean it's not like I am struggling in my pregnancy, right now. To tell you the truth, this is the best part of my pregnany. And little jonathan, is the only person who can make me smile, he daddy surely isn't worried about it.
If I haven't said the before jonathan (sr.), is a big baby. He is the only child, which makes him think the world revolves around him. When I tell him what to do he tells me, that I am not his mother. Ohh, but when he is sick, or want me to scarch his head it's "please, my mam would do it". I guess he thinks I want to be his mother, but he is oh so wrong. And, he also likes to make up issues, and problems to have. Jonathan is the only child as I mentioned before, and everyone basically comes running, when he says. He is well taken care of, and he isn't he one doing it. So, he feels that since he doesn't have real problems, he has to make problems for himself. I won't get in to that much, b/c i'll be typing all day. But he is really pissing me off! He is jealous of his own son. I went out the other day to lunch, by myself. And then I took a trip to the mall. I bough little jonathan two little outfits. Then I went to the baby shoe store, and I was looking at baby shoes. I made the mistake of calling jonathan, and I told him where I was, and what I was doing. He said, " okay, you are buying him shoes, but he can't whee them yet, and when he gets here he will have no use for them, but I have a use for shoes", like I said he is a big baby, jonathan does not work ,but believe me his has more than enough to get his own shoes, but again I am supposed to be his mother. I love him, but as of now I am cutting himoff. Today I told him, that if he needs to talk to me ,to write me a letter, b/c I refuse to answer the phone. I may talk to him in a month or so, if I feel like it. I am so stupid, b/c I know i'll call his phone from the computer. Not to talk, but just to make sure he is still breathing.