okay. so i'm pretty young. just turned 18 a while back
and theres so much presure to have sex and have a boyfriend
but like so many writters - i have the same problem
and until now i was unable to write about it and voice my concern.
i guess you could say - down there i am less than confident.
it makes me feel ugly.
i can never wear a bathing suit without shorts
and i have never had a boyfriend.
i tell my friends its because i'm picky, because some really great
guys have been interested. i'm just so scared they will see what i see.
another concern of mine is talk.
lots of the people i have been interested in are friends of friends
and i dont want everyone to know what i look like! it freaks me out
because i have never discussed it with my friends. i just avoid it.
i'm glad i stumbled upon this site. makes me feel less alone in all of this.
i also looked into surgery. but i think its an easy way out.
im sure if i did it i would just find another part of my
body that bothered me and want another easy out. instead i seek advice.
some guys have mentioned that they dont care??
i really hope this is true. i mean. im not a complete mutant -
but i have seen what pornstars look like
and the fact women on the beach can wear tight bathing suits
is a constant reminder that i am different =(
also. i would like to know just how many people look the way i do?
what is normal? or should i say, what is pretty??
thanks for listening. this sight has really made me feel better.