I'm not really sure where to begin, other than I logged onto this web site in hopes that there is an answer somewhere out there. I'm very depressed. Wish I could put my finger on just one thing that was making me feel this way but there seems to be too many things. I don't have anyone to talk to and if I go to a doctor then it's recorded on my medical record. Then when I change jobs, insurance won't cover it due to a pre-existing condition. I'm back in school for the 3rd time because I can't find a job in my field. The job market has dried up. So now i'm waiting to get into a nursing program to become a nurse. Here I am in my 50's trying to become a nurse. Am I crazy or what? I feel very alone. Haven't had a close friend or relationship for a long time. My life is pathetic. I play solitare to distract my thoughts. Am I the only one who feels this way?