I don't feel like writing much, it's 5:37AM (innnsomniaaaaa), but I just got prescribed prozac (for the second time in a year). The first time, I was very unsure, the doctor prescribed it so quick and I was too hesitant to fill it. This time I plan on going on it, I have the pills (got them today) but I might wait until the weekend to start (good idea?). I don't want to have to deal with potential side-symptoms when I have classes and work to do.
Anyway, I've been with my current counselor for about 7 months now. It's very important and helpful, I think, to have a therapist. Healing can definitely come out of that, especially in the form of emotion and mental growth. There can be a positive side to the depression with that perspective. I was always a closed-up, handle-my-caca-myself person when it came to my emotions. The last year and a half I've been dealing with depression and anxiety, which has given new definition to the terms for me.
A counselor isn't anti-depressant, but is definitely necessary. It's like having a navigator in a car, you know where you are going sometime, you are in complete control of where you are going, but sometime you need to be reminded of the directions, or have someone to keep a conversation.
My advice when choosing a Therapist:
- Take your time finding someone, don't spend too much time with someone you don't like. If you aren't feeling like it's worth while after three or so sessions try someone else!
- Make sure they are covered by your insurance. Find this out first. Insurance or not, know what it will cost you and be prepared. (I had a great counselor that ended up not being covered for me, so I had to switch)
-Switching sucks. It's starting over all over again, it's reliving the caca through verbal repetition. Try to go with a recommendation from a previous doctor or friend that you trust.
-The first week of appointments, get as many in (~3) as possible. Progress starts after the doctor has gotten to know you and your situation.
-Get a p.H.D shrink. Personal experience, it matters.
-If you have to try more that one, try both male and female. Most people do have a preference.
-Be honest, they are unbiased and completely trustworthy (in my experience). Don't lie or hide the truths
That's mostly it. I've recovered a lot of control over my depression and mostly just from understanding what is going on better. Having someone to communicate with regularly helps, especially for those with their emotions locked in their chest (me).
Other things that have helped me:
-Read an inspiring book (slash don't watch or read garbage tv or books)
-Exercise, get on a team, have a jogging buddy, do it as a social thing
-Write. Get a notebook and write as much as necessary or enjoyable.
Lately, I've withdrawn and missed session. Depression is a downward spiral. Have a schedule and do your best to make the appointments.
Anyway, more than I planned to write.
Goodnightmorning,
pilly billy