I'm not all that good on the computer, but I will do the best that I can for u to understand me. I had brain surgery in 1998, that's when things were turned around for me. My sister's husband died after they were divorced. She has 3 children, all teenagers. Sometimes I feel so sorry for her, because she's going thru the ringer with them. I've never stood in her shoes when it comes to what she's going thru. I met my husband in 1979 & we're still together. My depression (i think) stemmed from the brain surgery. I am the total opposite of what I use to be. It was very hard for me to cope with myself. I really thought that I would be working 6-months after surgery, but I just started having 1 problem after another. I'm have about 12 different symptoms now. For years I tried to be the way I was before surgery, after trying for so long, I finally decided to accept me the way I was, of course I prayed a lot. I love my husband very much, he's an original, he has always been there for me, but it was hard for him to accept me the way I was after surgery. I told him once that it was very hard for me to accept myself. After a lot of praying & researching, I came to the realization that I wasn't the only person n this world suffering. Who was I to even think that I deserved more attention than the doctors were giving me. I had a ruff childhood (mentally & physical), but thinking back to my child hood, is what made me think about things differently. It doesn't matter how much pain we're n (and believe me, as far as pain, i've been there a lot) or what we're going through, there's always someone out in this world prostitute doing 5x's worst than us. When I realized that with god's help, I started feeling better about myself, even though I can't drive yet, cook 1 thing at a time, sleep more than usually, no alcolic beverages, making sure that when I walk there's someone with me, etc.......... I have a lot of symptoms, but i'm always thinking of other people. I do have other mental issues, but I know that I can't stop it, but I can control it. I know I really don't know your situation totally, but I can imagine, because of what my sister's going thru. That's about all I can say. I hope you don't wait until it get's 2 late before u do anything. U need help now, if u can read, write & talk u will do fine, because your children r going to need u more than any body. When u know that u r depressed it's better to get help sooner than later. I did later & i'm just a big jumble or problems because I waited to long. Best of success to u. Because u have kids, so right now u have to do what's best for u & them. Good luck to u & your children. When I started seeing a psychiatrist, is when I started feeling a little better.