Lol - I told chris yesterday that I wanted him to leave me alone...And guess what. Not only 5 hours later he called me telling me that he loves me and blah blah blah.

Except, I decided that I dont wanna be with him. He isnt the type of father figure I want for nathaniel...Not too mention the fact that I sorta met another guy. Well not exactly.

I've known him for about 2 years and we're really close friends but all of the sudden we just hit it off. I'm not gonna pursue anything right now, but it is nice to have someone who actually cares. Matt(the new guy) told me that was here for me and that if it was okay he wanted to be there when nathaniel was born. And that even if nothing happens between us he's gonna love him anyway. Which is totally sweet. Lol

i havent decided yet if I want chris too see nathaniel or not...I'm kind of scared of that. Chris has a horrible temper and he has been drinking alot. But I guess we'll see what happens. I still have four months, maybe chris will come around and nathaniel will get to see his father. I dunno