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Q: Am I Depressed Or Just Crazy?

asked by: concernedslb on August 25th, 2004

New User

I need your alls advice other than tellin me I need to go see my doctor! Ok im 25, and when I was 16 I was diagnosed with severe depression disorder, so I was put on prozac, I took the meds for 2 years, everything was fine, so I stopped taking them, it was all good for about 2 years, then I started feeling depressed again, not as bad as I had been, it came and went, but for the last 2 years its became more intense, now for the last year I have been having what I believe to be panic attachs, my heart starts beating 90 miles a minute, I get anxious, if I hear one little noise I go off, I just put my face in my hands and take deep breaths untill its over. I dont know what it is, does anyone else have this problem? This mostly occures when I am out, in a crowded place, like grocery shopping and the kids are fighting, and my husband asking me questions, ppl standing in the way, I just freak out and just feel like sreaming " shut the f**k up" most of the time I leave my buggy sitting in the middle of the isle and get out of there. Same thing with any other shopping like at walmart or anywhere really, I am fine as long as I can go by myself, but if the kids are with me, and my husband, I just cant deal with it, I always end up storming out of the store. It happens sometimes at home too, I usually just go lock myself in my bedroom untill its over. I dont know whats wrong with me, and I am so afraid its going to destroy my marriage, I dont do anything with my family, I dont do anything at all with my kids, I feel like I am always yelling at them and my husband, I just always wanna be left alone, I dont talk to my husband about anything unless its yelling at him. I dont know what to do about this. I dont sleep, I dont eat, I have lost 20 pounds this month, and I am afraid that his whatever it is thats wrong with me if going to end up destroying my life, my family and my marriage. Help!!! What can I do, I do not wanna take medication.

Replies(24)

concernedslb

replied on August 25th, 2004

New User

No I dont have bad thoughts about hurting myself or others, I just dont want anyone around me, I want to be just by myself all the time. I never ever go anywhere unless its to the grocery store or walmart and just when I absolutely have to and most of time end up leaving the store with nothing because I have a panic attach right in the middle of the store. Same as at home, just one little thing gets on my nerves I go off, ya know I know kids will be kids but if they do anything I go off on them, I never hit them or anything but I know I am not being the kind of mother I am suppose to be to them, I fear they will grow up to hate me, and my husband will divorce me. I have tried to talk to him about it, and he says I am just over reacting and that I dont have a problem, so I didnt tell him about it anymore, I dont think he understands that this a bad thing and I can not control it, he seems to think I can just turn it off, but I cant. God I wish I could.

concernedslb

replied on August 28th, 2004

New User

I thought this was a place to come to for answers, 41 views and 1 reply???? This is a serious problem for me, I dont know what to do. Rolling Eyes

I wish you guys would help me or atleast try to help me. Please!!!! Crying or Very sad

PattyV

replied on August 28th, 2004

Extremely eHealthy

Anxiety and depression are real illnesses that sometimes require medication.If you stopped your meds without your docs supervision,that is very dangerous.Chemical imbalances can sometimes create these states and meds can help keep you on an even keel.There are some herbal alternatives,but they can have side affects,just like meds.See posts from purple333 and qt3.They seem very knowlegdable about alternative treatments.I know some meds have some wicked side effects,but if you were diabetic,would you not take insulin?If you need help and /or meds,there is nothing wrong with that.Best of luck to you.Patty

concernedslb

replied on August 28th, 2004

New User

Thanks for replying patty. I didnt stop taking them my doctor slowly took me off of them at 18 cause I had gotten completely better, I stayed better for a little over 2 years. I dont think its depression, not with the anxiety attachs that I have, I have two or three a day, and its making me crazy.

purple333

replied on August 29th, 2004

Extremely eHealthy

Hi cconcernedslb,

sorry i've been 1/2 off line due to computer issues or I hope i'd have replied sooner. I sooooooooo relate to the get me out of here/away from everyone feeling/need - I mean does everyone have to talk at you at the same time wanting you etc when you're trying to concentrate or just want to unwind even!! I think that many mothers feel this way to some extent - depending on husband, kids & self!!

You need to do some research & make some choices - as to what type of help you want for yourself - prescription meds (side effetcs, problems etc) natural alternatives (some do have side effects, some don't) e.G. Valerian, gingko, 5htp, sam-e, dhea, then there's machines (my personal wonder drug!!) ces machine or sound/light machine (dynamind.Com or alpha-stim.Com) also look into cbt (many colleges & hospitals apparently (not here!!) have free or cheap courses in this. Check posts by qt3 for details.

You are not alone, you are not crazy but you do need to find some solutions that suit you, your lifestyle, family & budget.

qt3

replied on August 31st, 2004

Experienced User

purple333 wrote:

hi cconcernedslb,

you are not alone, you are not crazy but you do need to find some solutions that suit you, your lifestyle, family & budget.

hi cconcernedslb-
that last sentence purple posted above says it all Smile

call your local university and see if they have a cbt program you can join, most are free or of little charge. Hospital's programs for cbt usual charge and sometimes a lot so try your local uni's first. See if your library has a copy of the obitz book, it's a short and simple intro to cbt from a sufferers perspective that you may identify with. Good luck and sorry I was away when you were in need Sad

lots of helpful people on here and especially purple!

Q

concernedslb

replied on August 31st, 2004

New User

Thanks guys, I bought some kind of herbal supliment today, not sure if its working but im gonna keep taking it to see. Ginkgo or something like that. So far I have not had an anxiety attack today which is not usual, I have had two to three attacks a day for the last couple of months.

chuawa

replied on September 1st, 2004

New User

I am taking ginko now.. I am taking it for my insomnia and memory loss. It is meant to help blood circulation especially to the brain.

I am thinking of taking st john's wort as a herbal supplement for my anxiety..

concernedslb

replied on September 1st, 2004

New User

Today has been a very very bad day. This thing is getting worse, I am now having suicidal thoughts, I believe that my husband and children will be better off without me. They cant handle me being this way and dont deserve it. I have tried to controll it but I cant anymore. Yesterday was a good day I didnt have any attacks at all, but as soon as I opened my eyes this morning I was yelling and saying things to my husband that he doesnt deserve. I just dont want to be bothered anymore. I guess this helps just to get it out, just to talk abou it. I dont know what ill do now, I know they are better off without me in there lives they could live so much better and be so much happier without me. Crying or Very sad

chuawa

replied on September 1st, 2004

New User

I know what you mean, there are days when I will wake up feeling like crying.... For no reason at all... That everything is meaningless..

But remember that it is definately your subconsious brain playing a trick on you

i always try to remember that when I feel really down, its my mind trying to challenge me.. And it's me that must control my mind.. Not the other way round...

Remember that the brain is just another piece of muscle in your body system? If you don't train it.. Control it...

I am sure your husband and children would never give up on you.. So why should you give up on yourself?

We are all here on this board for one mission, and that is to win the mother of all wars... The war with yourself

take things one step at a time.. Enjoy every moment you have with you husband and children... I did..

Learn more about your disorder.. Sun tzu said 'to know the enemy like you know yourselve, a hundred battles fought, a hundred battles won!'

read books, join forums, talk with friends and family, join cbt groups, see a doctor, take supplements... There are so much preparation in this war.. How much have you achieved?

Cindy63

replied on September 1st, 2004

New User

Hi, I was just on the phone with my mother and she told me there is always a silver lining behind every cloud and that you must find 3 good things that happen in one day! You have to learn to fight the urges to yell at your family not the family, try to count to 10 when you are having an attack, tell yourself to count to 10 and that it will pass and it will. I am still trying to cope with my depression and i'll tell you some days are better than the rest. My Dr. Asked me today if I could have a perfect life what would it consist of? I said spending quality time with my husband as he is hardly ever here, a 17 year old daughter that didn't snarl at me every time I asked her a question(even though it might be the 3rd time), a girl friend that I could spend time with and do things with, of course having enough money to survive, and be able to do the job I want to do. That is gardening. So stop and ask yourself what do you want, are you doing this because you don't get any of your own time? What do you think is causing your symptoms? Do you long for love and acceptance or support?
Does your husband need to give you space? Come on here and vent vent vent! I've been doing it since feb. Don't worry, be happy!!!! Cindy (hugs)

qt3

replied on September 20th, 2004

Experienced User

concernedslb wrote:

today has been a very very bad day. This thing is getting worse, I am now having suicidal thoughts, I believe that my husband and children will be better off without me. They cant handle me being this way and dont deserve it. I have tried to controll it but I cant anymore. Yesterday was a good day I didnt have any attacks at all, but as soon as I opened my eyes this morning I was yelling and saying things to my husband that he doesnt deserve. I just dont want to be bothered anymore. I guess this helps just to get it out, just to talk abou it. I dont know what ill do now, I know they are better off without me in there lives they could live so much better and be so much happier without me. Crying or Very sad

you sound like you need some help, so call your local university and see if they have a cbt group you can join. It takes some work but works wonders if you work at it Smile

callie8323

replied on September 21st, 2004

Experienced User

Talk to Them

First talk to your husband and kids they may help you a lot if you would let them know how you are feeling. Smile

they might uderstand a whole lot better if you would open up to someone I always find talking to someone to help a lot good luck.

BADSAL

replied on September 21st, 2004

Experienced User

Oh my gosh- after reading the original message I can so relate. I feel the same way when the kids and hubby are all around me needing something. Or i'm trying to think of what I need to get at the store and people keep talking to me, etc. I can't stand if music is on, people are talking and the kids are playing and making noise. I freak out. Sometimes I just have to go sit in my bedroom for a little while and relax. I take zoloft. I didn't want to take anything because I always thought only "crazy" people needed medication like that. But now I know it is not true. I weened myself off of it for a while with my dr's guidance but then I started getting my anxiety and panic feelings again so went back on it. No one really even needs to know about it. My husband is happy that it makes me more pleasant to be around. Other than that- only good friends and some family know I even take it. Also I started not to worry about the housework as much, and always having everything perfect. Sometimes the place gets trashed and I just let it go. Sometimes I come home from work and say sorry I don't have anything planned for dinner...... It is ok to let things go, as long as the hubby is ok with it. Oh- I also started going to curves for some exercise. It is a nice release. I don't need to loose any weight but I just feel a lot more energized. You are probalby a wonderful mom and wife. Take care of yourself though- sometimes you need to do things for you!!!!

NaRcOtIcS

replied on September 26th, 2004

New User

Hmm.........Interesting but it could be the cause of low energy, do you do much or are you getting enough vitamins. If you don't want to take alot of vitamins because you are unsure of what the problem is, and just have energy try nitro products. I recommend the drinks, it proves to give faster results. Records show a high energy person, is less stressed out and more confident in one self.

trap

replied on October 18th, 2004

Experienced User

First of all stores suck-the people in the stores suck-and you leaving the store when you feel like that is probably the best thing you could do-imagine if everyone just left the store when they had had enough-it would be a much better shoping experience for all-second dont lock yourself in a room -go for a walk get some air or better yet politely tell everyone there to get the hell out because you need some down time-everyone is stressed its getting rid of the things that stress you that is the answer no pills or shrink bills needed-plain and simple and always breathe deep

BADSAL

replied on October 18th, 2004

Experienced User

Oh ok, i'll just drop everything and go for a walk....Leave the kids home alone, what the heck............Or i'll just kick them out of the house for awhile............Sure- thanks for the great advice.

trap

replied on October 18th, 2004

Experienced User

Why is that so crazy?

BADSAL

replied on October 18th, 2004

Experienced User

Sorry! I must have taken it the wrong way. It just isn't as easy as you make it seem when someone is going through it.

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