Medication?

I've been so depressed recently. my energy level has dropped immensely, even though I get more sleep than I have before. It's difficult for me to laugh, or find anything enjoyable anymore. I just want to shut myself away from the world. I've contemplated suicide too many times. I address the problem to my mom, who doesn't think much of it. I ask her if I can get medication for it, because i've tried so many things to try and help the sadness, like surrounding myself with friends, writing, talking to a counselor, etc. But she thinks that medication is a bad thing in general, so she won't take me to see a doctor about it. Well, wait a minute. Isn't this me we're talking about? Shouldn't I have control over myself and what I think is best for me? She doesn't understand my situation, and unfortunately I have a feeling that she never will.