I have no clue whether I have bipolar or not, but I think I might. Here's some background...


I'm a freshman in highschool, and I have an older brother (a junior) who was diagnosed last year with depression and add. My mom has epilepsy and all the women on her side of the family have a mental disorder. (that's all I can think of to describe it, it's mostly depression) my 31-year-old cousin was diagnosed with bipolar in her senior year of highschool, and she died three and a half years ago. They never found what she died of, but her doctor thinks she might have been misdiagnosed. She thinks michelle was schizophrenic but was never diagnosed for it. Therefore, she was on a very high!dosage of the wrong medication.

Michelle had very severe mood swings, and that's what I thought bipolar was when I was growing up, just the big mood swings. But ever since last year, when I started having mood swings, when i'd go from being really hyper and excited to just an empty feeling, I thought it was hormones. (i had just started my period) but then tonight, I came home from freshman dance really excited and high on sugar and laughter. Then I went downstaiss, got talking with my brother and endee up in a fight with him, and by the end I was just empty. It's starting to wear off, but it's scaring me. I went through at least six emotions in about 10-15 minutes. I've been feeling like this for over a year, and I haven't told anyone, not even my mom, who i'm really close to. I'm scared of what people are going to think, which I know I shouldn't be, because I know that there's nothing I can do about it, and that there are people just like me out there and people who can help, but they scare me. Will you help?