I know everyone else in the world is sleeping right now but I still thought i'd share anyway. I'm on the comp. Cuz I cant sleep cuz things pretty much just went to hell with chris.

He basically told me once again...He dosent love me and that he wants to move on...He wants to forget about everything from highschool (he just graduated) and put it all in his past....Which includes me.

Which really hurts...I mean am pregnant and everything, the least he could do is be with me through this and dump me later. I mean, he wants to be "friends" but thats a little easier said then done when the guy treats you like sh*t everytime you see him or talk to him. And I also dated him for practically two years so I dont even know if I know how to be just a friend.

I'm going up to my old school for a football game tomorow and he is gonna be there with a bunch of his friends but he wants me to pretend I dont even know him so that his friends dont get mad at me. Because apparently he told them about all the crap I put him through but neglected to tell them about him cheating on multiple times and then ditching me becuz he got me pregnant and is scared. Which btw, he finally admited that that is why is cuz hes scared and dosent know what to do.

Argh, I just feel like kicking the bucket sometimes. Lol - not that i'd ever do that but thats just the mood im in. Grawr. Boys suck. I hope my baby is a girl...Cuz boys suck when they get older and I dont want any poor girl to have to go through what I did.

Although, now thinking about it, I am kinda glad things between us didnt work out. Because he isnt exactly the kind of person I want helping me raise my kid.

Okay i'm done ranting now and I have a question....Do you have to wait until the baby is born to start gettting paperwork and stuff for signing over his parental rights or could I do that now so I can just forget about him? And if you can, how do you go about it? Like where do I go to get paperwork and stuff? Do I have to get a lawyer? He isnt gonna protest in any way so i'm not worried about that...I just dont know where to go or who to talk to....

Well, sorry this is long, and thanks if you actually took the time to read it. Lol :p

*oh yeah, ona happier note, while most people are reading this tomorow morning, I am at the doctor having my ultrasound and probably finding out the gender. Yay!*