I just got married 5 months ago, fist time i've lived with a guy. One minuet I can be lovey dovey with him then the next ill snap like a crazy person over something real little and dumb. I thought it was hormonal problem but then I went on birth control to see if that would help with the bad mood swings and irritability but its still the same. When I was in high school I was very depressed and use to cut myself and thought of suicide all the time and sometimes now I can get really depressed and think of suicide but not as much before but the thing that stops me is my fear of god that I will go to hell if I kill myself. I feel like a nut with my horrible mood swings, irritability, and depression. And if I am bipolar could it be from my dad who was diagnose with bipolar disorder 8 years ago, so I dont know if I could have more of a chance of being bipolar because he has it.