Joined: 13 Aug 2004 Posts: 1 Location: Sigonella, Italy
I Think I Need Help!!! Posted: 08-13-04 15:59pm
Well, I have been through this before. I
have binged and purged for a few years
now. I do it when I am stressed out.
I did it throughout my first pregnancy
because my child's father left me and
when I was doing it, I didn't even know
that I was doing it. I went through it
with my second pregnancy also. I
realized what I was doing because my
husband told me what I was doing wasn't
normal. (we had an unplanned pregnancy
and I wasn't ready for a second child.)
so, I went through the therapy, lied to
the doc so I could get out of it with them
thinking I was "cured". (dumb navy
doctors!) after doing it for so long, it
became addicting. I like the feeling I
get when I do it now. Well, I am in the
navy and I have resently deployed and I am
really stressed out because I am away from
my family "fighting the war on terrorism".
I have just started doing it again
after not doing it for 9 months so I can
feel better about what I am going through.
My kids are growing up without there
mommy and I am over in italy, trying to
deal with this. I don't want make myself
get sick but I just can't stop. I can
tell that my ed is starting to take over
again and I don't know what to do or who
to turn to because I am in a new country
with limited medical services. I don't
really know what to do right now. I have
not told my husband that I have started
again because he said that if I started
again, he is going to leave me. He
doesn't want to go through this problem
again with me. It is so easy to do it
over here because he isn't here to yell at
me for doing it. He is on the other side
of the world. I don't know what to do.
Well, maybe someone has some advice for
me. Thanks for listening.
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KariM1804
Active User, Really EHEALTHy
Joined: 31 May 2004 Posts: 852 Location: grand blanc michigan
Posted: 08-15-04 20:49pm
Hey hun. My names kari, im 18 and I have
a 4 week old son. I also have been
bulimic and anorexic for 2 1/2 yrs. More
so bulimia struggles though. Im sorry
your having a hard time and I hope u can
recover. It is possible~! I know,
purging is so addicting. But the only way
we can recover is to eat as normal as
possible. Also, you would have to change
your image of yourself, image of food
etc..........I know its so much harder and
really icant tell u how to get better
because im not even better myself yet. I
am trying tho. And what I do is eat as
close to normal meals as possible. And
journaling helps me. But your husband
seems very unsupportive. U should be able
to talk to him about this, and about
anything, honestly I know easier said then
done, but I owouldnt be with someone who I
couldnt share my problems with and get
help. Could u see a councler? And maybe
your kids could be your inspiration to be
healthy? I know my son is mine. Please
try and take control back while u still
can. I am here for you and I truly
believe you have the inner strength to get
better if u really want to*
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purple333
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 01 Dec 2003 Posts: 1420 Location: Sydney
Posted: 08-15-04 23:23pm
As was said above - you need to find
inspiration - as much as possiible.
Your kids, your husband (i assume you love
him & want him to stay - his threat
may be only a threat - his not so great
way to motivate you!!_ also as you're in
the navy - my question is - do you want to
stay in the navy? If yes, then if you
keep this up & your health suffers you
will be out of the navy or dead!! Is it
realistic (career wise) to talk to a navy
dr or counsellor (these ones might be
better!!)??
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HLFOLKNER
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 23 Aug 2004 Posts: 29 Location: arkansas
Posted: 08-24-04 19:45pm
Hi my name is heather. I was bulemic for
6 years. I struggle with it everyday to
not throw up. Bulemia is a selfish
diease because we do not realize that we
are hurting not only ourselves but the
ones who love us most. I have been told
bulemia is about control. When nothing
else seems to go right around us we have
the control to throw up or not throw up.
That is the one thing we have complete
control of. This may sound odd but after
I purged I used to sigh with relief. It
was almost euphroic and tranquil. There
is one thing you have to think of most.
Your children. It is not just you. They
depend on you and look up to you. This
can kill you and you know that. Think
about how those children would think if
you weren't there. How hopeless and
desperate they would feel. You have to
want to help yourself. I apologize if I
seem harsh but I think about what I put my
family through and can't imagine how a
young child would handle this. I hope you
get to come home soon. The best thing you
can do is get yourself together before you
come home. Good luck
