I've tried to kill myself several times. I've tried drowning myself several times in my bathtub. Drowning would be an awful way to die. I've had a hunting rifle pointed to my head twice, but I wasn't able to pull the trigger. I think if I knew the combination to our safe. I would be dead now (probably at age 13). When I was a softmore in high school I started getting help and started taking anti-depressants, but things got worse. I tried killing myself with aspirin, but ended up damaging my liver badly. Killing yourself with aspirin can do lots of damage to your liver and probably won't kill you. I started taking barbiturates for anxiety, but I think it got me more depressed. I tried killing myself with about 60mg of alprazolam. My dad said that it would've taken 4 days to die if I was left untreated, but now I don't believe him. I wasn't sure what my doctor told my dad, because I was sleeping. About 3 years later I tried killing myself again with 600mg of valium and 400mg of valium the next day with alcohol. The highest dose that my doctor has put me on was 25mg of valium. I know this is hard to believe, but I never went to the hospital and the only side effect that I noticed was blurred vision. I should’ve had more side effects and I could’ve died. I drove to work those 2 days and I should’ve called in sick, because I couldn't see that well and was probably making lots of errors. A few days later I tried to kill myself with 3000mg of trazodone (a sleeping medication). What probably saved my life was that I took too much trazodone. Which made me vomit. For males I would not recommend overdosing on trazodone. It can cause a painful erection and may require surgery. When I overdosed on trazodone I started to feel better and didn't want to die, because it's also an anti-depressant. I also had a hell of a time falling asleep. A week later I tried to kill myself another way, but i'm going to keep it a secret. It's been 4 months since the last time I tried killing myself, but i'm not planning on trying to kill myself again. I feel a little better now.