Not a good idea. You are depressed and you need to realize your thoughts about your friends and family and how life might be easier for them with out you are irrational. That is what depression does. I know you feel like they are better off without you and there is nothing I can say that can change the way you feel but just think logically for a second. Your thoughts are irrational because in your brain your nuerotransmitters are not staying in synapses long enough to bind to their receptors and open enough channels to allow for the necessary ion flow so that electrical signals can go from one nerve cell to the next. Got that? I know it is complicated physiology stuff but realy all you need to know is that what you are thinking is not correct, due to the depression your thought process is not functioning on a normal level. Anyway you wouldn't be encaged if at least one person didn't want you around. You need to go see a doc. And get on some meds. They help a ton. I have been there.

Pookie dont think about that ok u dont need it you make the love ones around u miss u u say u getting married u should be happy have u talk to your soon to be husband about this if u need someone talk to u can always contact me to talk I dont walk that same roas I have no one only a 4 internet friends 2 friends up here who is very nice im living with my sis im 32 im overweight have one not so normal leg on disability have no one close to me like friends or gf all I got is a dog and cat my sis and her kids keeping me alive so I want u think real hard on this ok u deserve to live sometimes I think I wasnt ment to live myself

I feel the same way. I dont do good with stress. I cut, that how I deal with it. Not good either.

Talk to me anytime. :d

I know how you feel i've been there before & i'm there now - but somewhere deep inside I know as I pray you do that suicide is not the answer. Taking a bunch of pills right now seems such a good idea - for me - but I love my family & i've seen what a suicide does to those left behind so if not for me then for them I can not let myself take that path.

So I ask you to do the same, if not for you then for those you love, who love you, don't suicide. Please.

Thank you all for the encouragment. It is amazing how we might not know one another and yet be able to comfort and help each other. I was so overwhelmed yesterday with the trip to the hospital, learning of the costs, feeling that "this is real" in the pit of my gut and having to deal with everything else thrown at me. I put the rest of the pills up and slept through the rest of the day. I woke up to sunshine and feeling so much lighter. I think my brain was over-stressed and needed rest. Again, thank you for being so kind.

Im glad ur feeling better
just remember ur family, friends, everyone loves and cares about u!
So talk to ppl and let them know how ur feeling

xoxoxoxoxoxo

You need to stop listening to society and start taking notice of your own body and soul . There are " comfort zones " and if your life is in the balance you would qualify for one of them free of charge . Simply go to your local er and express to the er doctor that you are now having " ideas of suicide " and he wil send for a " psych eval " this guy will call the local behavoral clinic who will then take you in " pro bono " . So if you 've ever had someone in your life who have really cared about you I want you to focus on the things they used to tell you only positive statements start hearing their voice and believe that you can survive this stressful situation that others ( and you ) have gotten yourself into you will recieve counseling about maybe getting out of some of those stressful situations and especially or stressful relationships don 't make anything else ( at least right now ) a priority ... Take a breather ... Take a vacation ... Peace be with you

Please seek help if you are depressed or suicidal but for heaven sake be cautious about going to an er - all too often they are staffed by overworked underqualified morons who may push you over the edge fast instaed of helping you in anyway.

See your local dr - or a counsellor - someone who knows you, is preferably trained or who will at least refer you to someone who is trained & even then be careful, too many so-called professionals don't listen, don't take time & do soooo much harm.

I have gotten help and am feeling better *yet woozy* from surgery today. My doc upped my effexor. everything is okay now. Thank you all for the wonderful advice! God bless!

I am glad you are better pookiebear! Take care of yourself and if these feelings come back I would seek counseling. Sometimes it helps to talk things out.

P.S. If you go into an er and say that you have suicidal thoughts they will lock you up before you can say "just kidding"

I have had 2 suicide attempts and I am telling you that is the wrong solution. After being hospitalized I was diagnosed as bipolar and thank god I got the right meds and help I needed. Suicide is a very selfish thing. You think it could end your problems but you would leave behind a trail of heartache to those who love you. I see now what it did to my family. It just about tore them apart. I put my mom and dad through so much useless fear and sadness. I have never seen my father cry until he felt like there was nothing he could do to help me. You need to get help and get it fast.