Im new to the forum earlier this month and ive read alot of frightening things.I came to this forum to seek help about being scared I was pregnant! Im not! You guys have given me advice and I appriciate it. The boyfriend I have now is in jail and ive been with him for 2 years. Ive always been a sucker for love and sex has always been precious to me. When I had sex I took it personal and thought that this guy must like me a whole lot to share his body with me.Huge mistake!! I had some guys take advantage of me and never talk to me again.Totally ignore me!!(like I dont exist) my boyfriend now that im very in love with says he loves me and we'd always make up when we have a fight. He hopes someday we'd get married. He often asks me for a baby. Id agree but thank god it never happened. I thought that having a baby would be a blessing and with the love of my boyfriend.Its weird because he wasnt the first guy to ask me for a baby.(again I thank god that im not pregnant). I always like to be taken.I hate being alone!Now I see even though ive been with this guy 2 years it is not enough to know how certain we're going to stay together.If a fight with me and his family can tear us apart...And he rather believe them than me.....Im not so sure if hes worth me my future and having a baby alone unsure if he is going to be there or listen to all the lies his family is saying about me.His family already "loves" is ex-fling for him to be his girlfriend. If he choses to stay with me I have decided to hold off on sex( he'll probably be mad cuz you know coming out of jail and all..) and wait till I believe I am ready and that I know are relationship is stable. If not him..Then the future boyfriends. I have goals and I want a future with a family with someone who really appricates me for me not my body..Itll take along time to find this person..I hope not though!I wan to respect my body and myself and future.Im kind of dissapointed but I know its the right thing to do.I'll try my hardest to fullfill my plan.I hope it works but im not perfect.....So maybe I might make mistakes......Ill keep reminding my self about my plans.I hope love doesnt screw me over(lol).I hope this can touch someone else out there at least one and itll be worth it. Just becuase you said yes before you can say no now! Im 17 and been active since 14...If I can say no so can you.Thank u to everyone!!!Good luck to all young mommies...It is a blessing from god that u have been blessed with one of his children...
Lildreamer.