... my pain is unescapable, it fallows me to sleep, it fallows me to work, taughting me befor i wake in my dreams, a ever lasting, what can some one offer other then drugs for such a thing??? other then becomeing a guru of the mind which im already trying to acheive or is this my destined path which i alone must walk?
(xipoid process has punctured my heart and my heart is filling with liquid which will soon result in death)