You need to seek help - if you can't talk to your mum, what about a counsellor or teacher or your local dr & you need to go back on the meds - you said this started when you stopped them so I think you already know this is what you have to do.

You may have a long term mental problem/condition but you may equally be "merely" suffering hormonal & other changes relating to being young or a reaction to being teased - any number of possible causes.

Whatever it is can be treated but you have to accept the help, take meds, get counselling talk to & be honest with your family.

Oh honey.

firstly, why did u stop taking ur meds? Was there side effects or something… how long have u been on them? Obviously the cutting started because u stopped taking ur antidepressants, which isn’t good at all

questions u could ask urself;
1. Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?
2. Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
3. What have I done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
4. How do I feel right now? Am I angry? Frustrated? Restless? Sad? Craving the feeling of si?
5. How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
6. How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
7. Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
8. Do I need to hurt myself?

If ur finding it difficult to stop cutting in the heat of the moment, there are various things u could try…… I heard taking a cold/hot bath, biting into something strongly flavoured, squeezing a block of ice, wearing a rubber band around ur wrist, and snapping it when u get the urge to cut…… hmmm I don’t really know if these things work but it might be worth a try

Im here if u wanna talk
i hope ur o.K
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I had cut myself for 5 years but this year I finally had enough. For me the physical pain replaced the mental and made me focus on something else. I still get urges when stress is high, even though I am on meds (effexor). I am glad you want to stop! That's the first step to getting help. No matter how scary, talk to your mom. Trust me, she'll be more in shock than anything, mine was. I did get help though, and so far the closest I come to self-mutilation is my klutzyness.
Good luck to you, you'll be in my prayers

Ive heard that the chemicals released in your body when cutting give u a rush or high and that other physical activity that is vigorous (spelling) or provides a rush (i.E. Activity that holds the possibility of getting hurt) can reduce the desire to cut.. I had a very close friend who cut and there was a pattern. When we would stay active in things like extreme mountain biking, the cutting seemed to stop .

Instead of hurting yourself that way, why dont you look into piercings or tatoos. Join extra activities, work more. Get out more, try to get away from the things that make you want to hurt yourself. Im not a person whose big on medicine, but when it comes to depression I believe in it whole heartedly!! Depression is a disease!! And you have to contain it or itll make you nuts. And for what its worth, you have to love you, to be happy , good luck to you! I wish you the best

That idea of piercings and tattoos is what I use to deal with stress sometimes. I do agree about cutting giving you that rush. It's the same rush you get when getting a piercing or tattoo. I only have 8 piercings. When I start getting irriated with a situation or I feel the way you described, I get another peircing. Although, that has pretty much stopped for me now because I have found ways to keep myself happy and people that make me happy.