Well I mean what is he doing or saying? And if you really feel like you don't even like him, ask yourself if you love him, and if you don't then staying for the baby won't help anyone. How old are you again? Anyway if you do decide to come down here, when jon gets on my nerves and micheal gets on yours we can get away from them together. If you do move down here ,have you found a doc yet? Sorry for getting off of the subject but, right now me and jon are at one of the points in our realationship where both of us are just saying f*ck it. But it doesn't worry me b/c I know that our love for each other is real, and knowing that we can go through anything. But anyway, I don't know if it is the same for you, but if in your heart you feel that there is no love there and the only reason you are staying is for the baby you really need to leave. I say that b/c my mom and dad stay together for their children, and believe me it didn't help us at all, and we all ended up in therapy for it. And I think that maybe why I have a problem controling my anger. So I mean really think about it.

Well thats the thing michael doesnt really say or do anything wrong its just his attitude towards somethings, and how he views life... Like he is a car freak and he wants to build a car before the baby comes and I think it just makes more sense to put that off for now but he's like I have to keep waiting for the things I want, why wait when I could do it now, and that angers me off. And like its like the older he gets the dumber he gets or something I think he is just wearing off on me, but I do love him, I just dont like him a lot of the time. And no I havent found a doc in louisiana if I come down there yet cuz I havent really gotten my medicaid settled here and thats another thing I am not sure whether or not I want to have the baby there or not, oh yeah and I am 18. But sometimes i'm like wow I am lucky to have u and sometimes I am like why do I like u, but that would be cool to visit u sometime.
Meagan

Ita on that last comment. And I understand, it is like our bf's are brothers. Jon loves cars, money, and dogs. And that is all he talks about, and sometimes I think he worries about the d*mn dog more than he worries about me. One day last year I decided to teach him a lesson. He was out with his friends, and when he is out late at night he usually calls to make sure I am going to bed cuz i'm a homebody. That night I went out with my friend meagan, and she happened to be on a date that night, but a bunch of our friends were going out to eat in the quarter, so they took me. I called jon on her phone so he would know that I was out, (he can't stand her), and when he heard a male voice he went clean off. It is so funny I am laughing right now. But that made him realize that he can't always count on something to be real, but i'd never do it again cuz we almost really broke up over it. But anyway back to the subject sometimes you just gotta try to get their attention. I believe me I know you've tried talking to him and it doen't work, cuz jon is the same way. It always seems as though something else is more important. I wish I had the answer, but the truth is I am trying to sort through my relationship. But what I can say is if you really love him, try to give it some time. We mature so much faster than they do, that sometimes it is the only thing we can do. But if it is stressing you out to the point that the baby may get hurt, just leave it alone, and sort things out after the baby is born. And know that you are not the only one who has a health question bf, cuz i'm right here with you.

Oh and did you get your medicaid yet? If not how long ago did you apply? I'll try to check and see, if it can just transfer to down here. But I know down here it takes two weeks for them to put you app in the system, and when they do you can call and get the name and number of your case worker, and if you have a nice one like mine she'll certifiy you that day.

Lol meagan, meagan, meagan!! Welcome to the joys and hormones of pregnancy girl I was the exact same way w/ raven huni u got something growing inside of u of course ur going to be this way!! Beleive me I wanted to break up and all that w/ raven but hang in there sweetie it will get better and its all worth it I promise!

Well thats nice to know jen, sometimes I think its my horomones but then sometimes I am like "no... I wanna kill him". Lol. And newlife it sounds like my bf and your bf could be twins.Lol we just talked and I feel better, so I am gonna chalk that post up to horomones, but who knows next time. Lol.
Meagan

Darn it, I wanted to say something, but forgot!!!

well.. Umm... Ok, let me kind of re-read some of the posts and see if I remember! Lol!!

Oh well I don't remember, but here are my two cents. My bf and I got along really great before I got pregnant. It was an amazing relationship. I should have know it was all too good to be true. Well it seems before I even knew I was pregnant, things changed quick! I went bonkers, and became very hard to deal with. The whole time though I felt it was him! I really had to sit back and look at things though to see it was me who was being so hard to be around. I quickly changed that though. I still find it very hard to be around him all the time!

Oh I just remembered what I wanted to say!!! Woooohooo!!!!

Take a break from him!!!!! Trust me, it will do you both a whole lot of good!!!!! Take a vacation basically for 2-4 weeks from each other! Only talk if you need to talk during the time away, but for the most part, stay compleatly away from eachother for 2-4 weeks, and it should help a lot!! I'm sure you all know whats going on with my bf and i, and yes I know I can be labeled stupid for sticking with him, and for how I acted on here about it, but this time I have away from him is great. And when I talked to him the other day, he said the same thing. He hates it in jail, but he is happy he is there, because its forcing us to take a much deeded break from each other, and its made him focus most of his time on getting close to jesus again!! So my advice to you is not to end things untill you have given all chances, and there is no hope for you two!! I know its hard to be away from those you love, I know I am going insane with out him, but it feels soooooo good at the same time!! I just knwo when I see him, I am going to jump all over him! I want to wish you all the luck hun, and if you know you want to be with him, then you gotta take steps to make it work. I know you are having trouble talking to him. Most guys don't like "talking". But if you can get him to sit down with you for a little bit, try telling him how you are feeling, and what you want. If he loves you, he will understand, and try to help things out! I'm greatful to have a bf who will stop what ever he is doing 98% of the time to listen to me when I need to talk! I've never had this before, ever in my life!

Ok enough I already typed a book here! But good luck hun!! And remember love is a lot of hard work! It just doesn't happen.

stacey

Meagan, lol is it to the point where just his breathing drives you insane? Trust me, its the hormones. I felt the same way in the begining of my pregnancy, and I thought I didnt want to be with kevin anymore cuz he was driving me insane. But I realized that its just me, and not him. Im pregnant, and ive got some crazy hormones and stupid things really bother me now. Like when he puts his foot on ~my~ foot rest thing on the recliner (we have a loveseat that reclines on both sides), or when he breathes out of his nose and I can hear it, when he wiggles his foot in bed or when we are sitting on the couch, when I can hear him eating, pretty much if I just know hes there he is bothering me. Its just hormones though. If you love him and know you want to be with him(besides the hormone thing lol) you gotta stick together through thick and thin. Your just going to have to learn ways to get away from it. Take breaks from each other, even 2-3 days is good. When he starts bothering you, just find something to do that away from him... I go and play with stuff in the baby room lol, I go on the internet, or just lay in bed with the door closed, taking walks helps too, and so does going and just sitting at the park to relax and clear your mind. Your gonna feel this way until that baby is out and your hormones are back to normal, you gotta find ways to get away that suit you best.

Meagan, i'd wait it out. Pregnancy does that to you! It should fade after you have the baby. If you still feel this way several months after you give birth, then i'd say maybe its permanent. But right now, I think its probably the horomones.